in 2003 i was at some girls house and my friend convinced me to get my ear pierced, this girl pierced my friends ear first and then with the same sewing needle, i think it was the same one at least, she stuck it in mine before i had time to react. I let it go but was kind of worried. My friend was black by the way (i am not prejudice i just thought it could be a nessesary detail) and very sexually active with a ton of filthy slutty highschool hoes (id seen him fuck at least 3 different girls in person within a 1 month period, he wasnt shy about where he did this) 6 months later i was going to join the army and they make you take a mandatory aids/hiv test and drew blood, i heard nothing back from them and was enlisted successfully. flash forward 8 more months, i decide not to join and back out because i didnt like my assigned job. Couple more months later, i donate blood to the red cross, they never tell me a thing is wrong.
Now I have a swollen gland on the left side on my neck and i have occasional bad headaches, im also tired a lot of time but then again i havent slept much in the past couple weeks. I also have three tiny white bumps under my lip inside my mouth that have been there for a long time, i dont remmeber when they appeared. I also had like 6 cold sores in the past month though i have had them my whole life. I sweat a lot too.
I donated blood two days ago and the day after i get a call asking me to verify my ss# with them, i got scared as hell when i get a call from the red cross but i called back and corrected the number and they said "thanks for the verification well go ahead and process your donation now".
i also am a complete virgin, never once even kissed a girl or even held hands.
also ill add that my friend mysterously disappeared maybe a month or so after that, no one knew what happened to him but i heard some rumor he got kicked out of his hoiuse and was living in a town about a couple hundred miles away.
is there any possibility of me having aids/hiv? i checked out symptoms on websites and some i relate with. i dont see how i could have gotten it other than that one incidence and there were 3 seperate events afterward that most certainly should have caught on to it but would they even have notified me or anything?
if i do have aids i wanna know so i can go kill myself, because i cant bear to have anyone know of such a thing