Well hi everyone i aint been here for quite a while ive been sooo busy with tasks that life throws at you anyhoot...i was feeling so much better ive been great perfected even for about 3 months nearly but well this last 3 weeks have been a mess...here is how it started... found out my best friends finacee anthony had died in a car crash up the road from me (he was also a very very very good childhood friend of mine) then i start my new job and people are treating me like a real ass ach becouse i am so young with a child and i have a nose stud, they are all so snotty. on my 1st week of trainning in my new job i get a phone call on my mobile from my friends sister, she was screaming and crying on the phone my friend emma had killed herself , as she wanted to be with her finacee anthony. my heads a mess i dont know what to do ive been putting this mad loud crazy front on i cant talk to people anymore cause im scared they are getting sick of all this bollocks thats going on in my life. Becky eddie if you read this im sorry i didnt tell you i couldnt you two are so happy together now i couldnt put a downer onit. Guys please give me sum advice please. Ive been getting very very bad panic attacks too i even had one in work on thursday. my odc put my prozac up and ive started to do yoga to help my stress relife but in the mean time b4 all this works i dunno what the fucking hell to do. Emma was my best mate she was my frined since primary school so was anthony i cant believe it he was only 21 she was only 19 why does this fucking nasty shit happen if there is anyone up in the heavens why do they let this bullshit happen they had all there life ahead of them they even spoke about having children too. sorry i had to say this
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just do your thing at work!!!you're there for yourself and if peeps are snotty let em be,but dont let em get to you.laugh at them in your head.they only have as much power or influence over you as you let them have.all the deaths.i'm really sorry.tragic and young,it's so sad.but we gotta keep on swimming.you've been doing well for a long time as you said.it'll happen hat you'll feel shitty from time to time(almost always with good reason).i was also doing well for about 9 months then i got so depressed.it really knocked me back to feel so bad after feeling good for so long.it only lasted for 3 weeks .i'm on the up and up again.panic attacks? yeah they'll subside too,i wouldnt worry about it. you have so much time to do so many things,so dont spend it worrying about worrying! take things as they come,dont let your head get cluttered.yoga is great,when i was having anxety problems i used to go for walks with my dog.jus time out to relax i guess.man!! im tired cause its late i dont know if im making any sense to you?let me know ok?anyway fluffy.pm me anytime if ya need to,hope you're feeling a lil better by the time you read this.keep your head up.k.
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I'm so sorry, Fluffy_Pussy. Theese things happening are not good and they are not what God wants, and you are allowed to be sad and angry and depressed because it's a horrible thing to happen once, let alone twice.
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hunni, don't be sorry. yeah we happy together, so happy i
don't think anybody could put a downer on it. we were so worried for you last night. This will pass, i can understand why she did it totally, i tried many times when my x was killed. i know it bad, but it will pass and it will get better. both me and eddie are here for you any time you need us. Please stay safe, you have my number, call me whenever *hugs* -
Fluffy, you helped me last year when I was really down, if I can do anything, let me know, or PM me. Chin up mate, and don't let your colleagues get you down - do what you need to do to get on, and ignore their digs.
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So sorry for what happened fluff. It's important to take one day at a time, especially when times start to get rough. Leave what's in the past for now and you can revisit later when you're more emotionally ready. What matters is today and tomorrow. You can't change the past, but you can change the future.
Go to work and use what I like to call "kill them with kindness". Stereotypes and first impressions are often stronger than what they are supposed to be. Show them your kindness and the curse of first-hand physical appearance will fade.
As for the panic attacks, they key here is prevention. When you start to feel stressed out, try relaxing. Do you remember that relaxation technique I told you about a few months ago? Try that if you're at home. If you're at work, then find a place where you can close your eyes for a few second and take a really deep breath. Inhale through your nose and expel through your mouth. Sit for a second and when your hand is steady, get up and get moving again.
In my opinion, God gave us free will. Many people underestimate this will we possess. You can be as strong as you want to be and you can make anything happen in your mind. Unfortunately, this free will has a drawback as almost everything does. God does not directly intervene choice or decision. Everything in this world has a positive and a negative, whichever side you choose to see dictates your emotions and, over time, the person you are. Use the advantage of free will and make things happen for you now and the future.
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all; of you thankyou so much for everything you dont know what your help means to me all this support is great im off to the docs tomoz and i am seeing a counsellor every thursday i need help n this time im gonna get it.
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good on you fluf .