for about 8 years i have been pretty depressed, but its been on and off again. I had a boyfriend for two years and we were going to get married. but about 6 months ago i dumped him because i found somebody else. I am with the new guy, but i just cant get my ex out of my head, still. He lives over 2 hours away though. He hates me, I cant see him and its killing me. I thought I would get over him, but I am suffering from the worst depression i have ever had. It gets worse everyday, I love my new boyfriend, ive told him that i miss my ex but he just says ill get over it. sometimes i just cry, when im driving to work, when im in the shower. I cry for my ex, it is like he has died. I CANNOT get him back, because he dont want me and i love my boyfriend too much, he is the only reason i havnt killed myself yet. Im so misserable. I just want to die.