Journal anomoly report:
October 25th, 2005
Total weight loss (in lbs): 15
It has been one week since my last report. Unfortunately, my weight has isolated, still the same. My mother is busy with Halloween, and she is short handed, and of course I am working for her. So I could not go to the gym for 5 days. There is only 5 more days left, and after that everything will resume on normal scheduel. Fortunately, I went tonight, and I feel great. However, thats not the highlight today-- Something strange happened today...
For some background, I have five good guy friends, you know, ones that I hang out with. Last year, I instigated 'matchmaking' for 3 of my guy friends, meaning, I hooked three of them up with girls, who were also good friends of mine. Few months ago, I hooked up my other guy friend... But today... a nice girl who I was friends with for a long time asked me to hook her up with my final guy friend who was single: who we'll call John. Of course, I said I will do what I can, I mean, thats what friends are for. Tomorrow John will ask her to the Haloween party this Saturday. I officially hold the 'Matchmaker' title... Now instead of all 5 of us hanging out regularly, they will hang out, in pairs of two- and I will not be included. Now.. I did't lose my friends at all, just because they didn't thank me, doesn't mean they aren't my friends still, right? So now, when I should be on the phone, or playing a game with one of them, they are all having a good time with their spouse, and I am greatful for that. However, now we, or atleast I will not hang out with them anymore. I guess every good thing has something bad in it, for me atleast (of course).
But I am making light of this matter-- instead of moping, wishing I had a great life like them, I am doing something about it, however, this daunting task will take months if not years, and the rest of this year will be very dark for me... Maybe one day I will also expirience this thing called 'love' or 'puppy love' for you adults... In any case, Im using this unfortunate event towards me to my advantage, motivation to beat the 'system'...