So here's the story. I have been sort of a problem child in the sense that my parents have had problems getting me out of the house, or from their perspective, I've had trouble getting my life together. The reason I've had so much trouble is because I've been struggling to cope with a pretty extreme case of mental illness that involves heavy anxiety, obsessing over misc. things, and anger problems and social awkwardness.Technically the quacks consider me to be Bipolar with attention problems and anxiety and anger problems. So anyways, I've tried to explain to my parents time and time again what it is like. They won't listen. They hear my voice but it's like it doesn't register in their heads that I, their son, am psychotic.In the past year I have made great strides in coping with my illness. I have a much healthier mindset but my life is so unbalanced it isn't funny.The reason I bring up my parents is because I have trouble stepping outside of my room when I know my mom is going to act strangely towards me. And when I mean strange, I mean she gets frustrated with me and she will get angry at me. When I call her out on it, she's like "that's not angry" or "you haven't seen me angry."I just can't take it. I have nowhere to go. This is my home. I am trying to get into a vocational rehab program that will pay for my school so I can maybe stay at a dorm and get out.My friend says I should face this problem and fix my home life before I move out. I would like to but I have little faith that any of my advances will end in progression. My parents are extremely stubborn. They think because they have power over me that they can treat me however they want to. I have been to the point where I've contemplated suicide because of how they treat me. I fucking hate it here.People will say that I am being a bitch and that what I live through is nothing compared to that of [insert reference to a story of someone who had it harder than me].That doesn't change anything for me. Everyday I am affected by how my parents treat me. My psychologist says they put so much pressure on me that I am putting a ton of pressure on myself to the point where I am obsessing over ways to get out and be independent so I never have to see them again.I am going to ask my mom to go to my psychologist with me so she can't escape the responsibility of how she treats me and she can actually own up to it. I don't know what else to do.Help.
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Parents still fail to realize.
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I think bringing parents along to the psychologist is a very good idea. It will help them be involved and to take the issues seriously.A vocational rehab program would be very good too, especially if it has a dorm as part of it. I understand that moving out would be a high-anxiety process, but even some temporary time out of home would be very helpful, I think.An issue of terminology: 'psychotic' does not mean 'having a mental illness'. It is much more specific, and refers to problems perceiving what is real and what is not, shown by delusions or hallucinations - you haven't suggested you have these.
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No two people are identical, but it is remarkable how much you and droppydees have in common. You are both struggling with a lot of the same issues.
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Your psychologist could ask to talk with them…. (if she is unwilling when you ask her) My parents and sister see my nut doc. Not as much as I do but they have appointment with out me. I have appointments with just my dad or my mom. Their lives is effected by the abuse too even though they weren’t abused. They had to go threw session to learn signals, when to back off, when to pull me in, how to deal with my violent outbursts ( aka freak out) or/and flashbacks - they can be violent outburst or extremely quite, zombie like. But for me them understanding more of what I go threw has helped me… I don’t really know how to put it.
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Originally Posted By: droppydeesMy friend says I should face this problem and fix my home life before I move out. I would like to but I have little faith that any of my advances will end in progression. My parents are extremely stubborn. They think because they have power over me that they can treat me however they want to. I have been to the point where I've contemplated suicide because of how they treat me. I fucking hate it here.I'm not trying to discourage you or say you shouldn't take your parents to the shrink with you, because I think you should, try it. It can't hurt anything and may work out wondrously. However don't put all your stock in "fixing" them. Concentrate on the one thing you can affect change in, and that is yourself, your own life. I honestly think that the advice your friends has given you isn't the best. Sometimes we just have to put distance between ourselves and people that hurt us, bring us down or whatever. Sometimes in order to move on we need to be free of those things and sometimes that means moving on without a positive resolution to those things. You can try to get them to understand your issues, you can try and get them to therapy but if those things don't work out as you would like don't let that hold you back from pursuing your own mental health and your own future. Keep moving forward and that may mean moving away from them and moving out to a dorm or what have you. Sometimes a few more degrees of separation do wonders for relationships.Resolution is overrated, sometimes all we can do is move forward from where we're at and put the past behind us.
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Quote:Resolution is overratedI completely agree. Most problems never get resolved, they just get moved away from.I always suspect statements that certain things have to be done for 'closure' - I wonder whether closure is ever achieved.