I've never had a girlfriend. But then again, I've never had a boyfriend. Nor have I had sex of any kind.
I get turned on by women and want to have a heterosexual relationship, with marriage and kids etc. The idea of homosexual relationship does not appeal to me in any way, shape or form. However, gay sex does appeal to me as much as sex with a woman.
Is this confusion down to the fact that I have never had sex before (i.e. did a lot of people feel the same at adolescence?) or do you think that because I have looked at gay porn before I might be totally gay?
My sexuality, like a lot of things in my life, worries me, and the fear of abnormality will never go away. Especially not if I have to live a lie all my life (I'll never admit that I'm gay to other people). :frowning: