Is it selfish?

---

"do you go from sheer elation to, "I just want to die."?"
basically.. yes. I also get very angry and stressed out at the most minor things. Like I finished half an hour early in my exam and almost cried with a depressed feeling because I hadnt completed every question in the paper... Things like that are just weird. But its mostly im in my room and I just suddenly feel depressed. I also can be totally the oposite, and get depressed thinking about death... and not the fact I want to die, but the fact that I will some day. At times that is what I want, other times that can just make me more depressed. And once I start thinking about it there is no stopping me... I jsut start thinking about everything.

Sound kinda manic-depressive to me. Keep in mind I'm no doctor, I've just been there. Check out this link N.I.M.H. , see if you think any of it applies to you and if they offer any advice.

The mood swings seem very quick for manic depression. Cyclothymia, perhaps?

Or just regular depression? In any case, it's something that might benefit greatly by a visit to the doc.

Quite a few do actually.

im similar to you, i used to be a lot worse about a year ago. but i can suddenly go into a really deep mood swing for no apparent reason, and i know im being a moody bitch and i know i should be like that, but its so difficult to get out of. its a difficult one, like i said before, i used to be a more depressive person-i used to a be a self harmer, and had that cry yourself to sleep kind of thing..i never went to the doc, but kinda wish i had at the time, as i had no one to talk to...i agree with the others, theres no harm going to the doctors, youve got nothing to lose

I only live in a small village and all the doctors know my family.

I was just looking for some paracetamol and totally lost it because I couldnt find any. I got irritated and hot and depressed. I dont know why I get like that

The family situation at home, seems to be troubling. It also seems that you are trying to impress someone by getting good grades. I say that because you wrote a test but u felt bad afterwards when u didnt answer all the questions.I think it could be the lack of self-acceptance that you are going through.You are being tooo hard on yourself.If you can see a psychiatrist please do.They can help guide you in a good direction.Normaly when people are depressed you dont feel like doing anything and most people avoid you. If you could do the opposite and do everything that makes you feel good. Your body will adjust and you will start thinking happy thoughts.Also your eating habits. Most causes of depression are because of your Blood type.Theres a book called: "Eat right for your type". What it does, is it tells you what excercises and foods are good for your blood type.I am bloodtype O: and i am supposed to be very energetic. if i dont do hectic sports or excercise then i get depressed which is true. This is not true for all blood types though:)If you would like to know more please contact me:)

In reply to:Also your eating habits. Most causes of depression are because of your Blood type.Theres a book called: "Eat right for your type". What it does, is it tells you what excercises and foods are good for your blood type.I am bloodtype O: and i am supposed to be very energetic. if i dont do hectic sports or excercise then i get depressed which is true. This is not true for all blood types though:)I know you're trying to be helpful, but her issues are not going to be addressed by that pseudo-scientific bulls**t nonsense.I'm all for the psychiatrist idea, though. A psychologist would be good, but a psychiatrist has specific knowledge about prescribing antidepressants if they are indicated.

Thankyou, and yeh I suppose I am trying to impress my parents. My brother got really good grades and my mum keeps saying at this rate im going to do better than him, and he just laughs and says "Ill believe it when I see it"

I wish education could be separated from competition - I don't think it helps at all. Education is all about learning things, and how much someone else learns should have nothing to do with it. It's something you should do for yourself.

It doesn't feel like that with the league tables in the UK, showing how well each school is doing and how badly you rank compared to everyone else grrr

Same in Ireland. They fucked ours up though, they put our school near the bottom when we were supposed to be 5th or 6th. Ya think it wouldn't be too bad but as soon as they came out there were some parents trying to take their kids out of the school. Its pretty damn serious and it sucks.

Ok no problem:) so the best thing to understand now is that you can never please or impress them enough, for them to like you.No matter what you do, they will never be satisfied.You have to be satisfied with yourself for accomplishing all your goals:)

If you believe it is not going to work for you then it wont!I have tried it and it works perfectly for me:) The proof is in the pudding. Some people just want to have an oppinion about everything without any facts to back it up.You get different psychiatrists and yes some of them are bad, and prescribe medicine that makes you feel worse but you have to use your own conscioussness here and decide for yourself what is right?I have been to two psychiatrists and the 1st one wanted to put me on "prozac" which would have been the worst mistake of my life! Luckily i refused because i have heard stories of how anti-depressants cause side-effects and the suicidal thoughts you get. Also there was a movie that Christina Ritchie acted in called "Prozac Nation" that caught my attention and didnt give prozac a good reputation.In all due respect my bullshit has more credentials then your half-sided yes and no.

EDIT:I stand corrected

cough cough http://www.srmhp.org/0301/media-watch.html

If you believe it is not going to work for you then it wont!That's what every cult/religion/crackpot says. What's your evidence for the blood thing, other than "So and so tried it, and it worked!"?I'm glad you're doing better, but the placebo effect is very, very powerful.