I know this comes up a lot. But I just need to hear what everyone things. I posted a longer version of this in the relationship forum, but this more so gets to the point.I had sexual relations with this woman the other day. She tells me she is on the depo shot. I want to believe her so much and everything from the past(I've know this girl for over 2 years.) tells me she is. But I got this weird mental block, so lets assume she isn't. I ended up masturbating in front of her. After I was done I immediately went to the bathroom and washed myself off. She didn't have soap so I used this facial cleanser. After that, about and hour later we ended up making out. I went to use the bathroom(I pee'ed a ton that night) and came back and decided to give her head. My fingers ended up inside her too while I was giving her head. I can't remember if I touched myself after I masturbated and before I gave her head or not. Later that morning she decided to give me head. I pulled out before I came.Now everyone must know. I'm messed up in the head. I experience great anxiety after having any sexual relations, whether I was safe or not. Stupid ideas of how the woman could have gotten pregnant pop into my head against my will( I don't purposely think of these things).Now to my questions: 1) Do you think using the facial cleanser and washing myself off killed the sperm?2)Can sperm get through clothes?I know she is probably not pregnant, and to trap a guy with pregnancy is a low thing to do especially after she tells me she doesn't want kids and is on depo. But I got this trust issue thing that only pops up after I've had sex(I hate my mind).I don't know why I think of these things, I know I tell myself I won't ever have sex again, I told myself this before I did it again with her. I just....I don't know, weak self control I guess. Now I'm freaking out.
Worried about pregnancy
Peace of mind is Priceless
In reply to:1) Do you think using the facial cleanser and washing myself off killed the sperm?2)Can sperm get through clothes?1. Yes, and washed away the bodies, too.2. Dry clothes - impossible. Absolutely wet clothes - perhaps through a single layer, unlikely through more.But the real problem is your anxiety disorder.