My friend sent me this email and it got me really depresseda true rape story....this is so fukkin sad it made me cryPlease, just listen. Im just a girlTrying to shout out for help; or a handPlease take a read; just listenLook from my view; Try and understand?I love my Dad; O Dear God i doBut some things i need to ask whyBecause isnt my love in my heartGood enough; He likes to see me hurt and cry?It happens every week;Since i turned eight years oldPlease understand im thirteen and weakThis is an act; bravery and boldI want to tell you; so muchSo maybe one of you can help me?I can't do this on my own; aloneSo please im begging on my kneesFriday night; Pub night for DadSo he forgets all about my MomDrinks till he can hardly standSometimes a quick drink for fun?Mom left me when i was seven and a halfBut its all in the past; o i miss her thoughI look at my father; crying he isBut when is it time; for his pain to showFriday after a drink; he can stand and walkHes not out his face; tripping to fall"Jess get down these staires"At 12 Midnight; Its not like him to callWalking in my nighty; rubbing my eyesMy fathers sitting on the sofa with his friendHe pats the seat in the middle; i sitShivering so cold; a quilt he lends"Jessy you love me dont you" a smile; hisTheir breathe spirts weep"Daddy you know i do; what is it?"He smiles at his friend; his hand creepsHis friend takes my hand; looks me in the eyesDaddys creeping up my nightie; cold handsI try to pull his hand away; grip is strong!They look at one another; nod; something plannedI feel my palms sweat; Daddys under my knickers"Daddy im going to bed! Night" Pulling againBut there grip is to strong for weak meI look at both; and ask, who are these men?His fingers going up me; pulling awayHis friend leans forward; a kiss? Why?His toungue moving mine; my eyes squintLean back and away; "Why are you doing this?"No answer, i feel the pain inside me; himChucks the quilt on the floor; me toI try and scamper away, but im not fast"O Daddy please, i love you"His friend; pulling at my nightieAnd my Dad pulling my pants downHis friend pinning my hands to the floorAs my Dad lies himself on the groundI squirm; as Daddy friend pulls me upAnd places me ontop of Daddy; thursts withinI cry; i bite; i scratch; i slap; i fail"O Daddy please you win you win!"I can feel my skin rip; my virginity breaking freeI can feel the blood seep down my leg"Daddy your hurting me please"I plead to him and his friend; not even a begDaddys laughing; why does he laugh?His friend shoves himself in my mouth and moansTieing my hands togather; moving in and out"Ride me Jessy" He laughs and groansThey smile at one another; laugh toThey roll me over and spread me wideMy daddy sits on my face; himself in againWhile his friend talks and pushes himself insideI can hardly breathe; i gag for airI cough and splutter; cry and weepI beg and plead; but its no useTheyve already made me hurt and bleedI stare into his eyes; that look upon meThis is not my Dad; where is he?If he was still here; would he careWould he actually even; see?Finally they get of and lie me on the sofaMy cheeks blouchy from tears and painThey play with them selfs; all over meRub it in; making me feel the shame"Why Daddy? Please tell me why?"Dad looks at his friend; and waves him away"Jessy i love you" he smiles and kisses my cheek"Is that all you have in your heart to say?"He puts my nightie on meI walks me to my bedroom doorEver since that night; His friendAnd himself every Friday come back for more"Night sweet Girl; You are my life"Closing the door, tears still down my faceStill the smell of him and his friendFade into me like disgraceI watch the Moon go down; the sun come up"Jessy its school" Knocking at my doorI cant help but cry; weep in painBecause im so scared he wanted moreBut one night daddy took it too farDaddy and his friend came back for one last shotThey were worried they would get caughtSo he and his friend took me to a cemetary lotI was blindfolded and my hands were tied back"Daddy please!! Not tonight!"Daddy and his friend both had their last funAfter that i tried to put up a fightI begged daddy "Please no more!"All he could say "Shut up you stupid whore!"Daddy unblindfolded me at lastHe said I love you so muchHe went back into the car and pulled out a bat"Daddy I swear I wont say a thing!!!!"I was deadAfter only one swing
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So sad
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**that is so disturbing.............wish i hadn't read it! **
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yeh it really is disturbing..was that neccesary?
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i doubt its true but thats not to say that kind of stuff doesnt happen, only read the last paragraph, counldnt bring myself to read the rest...thanks for that!!
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youre lucky you missed the part about her virginity breaking free
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I don't even know what to say. A warning would have been nice.
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wow.. okay yeah I had to stop reading and skip to the last couple verses...lost for words... wow....
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Damn it people stop trying to depress me!!!!!! Its bad enough its all rainy outside!!
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oh geez I'm sorry I cried when I read it how could you not. Things like this actually do happen though...messed up world.
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People were posting that in bulletins on myspace...I didn't even read the whole thing, mainly because it would depress me and I know some kid in their garage made it up.
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I read the whole thing. Go me.
Wish it was possible to stop all this nasty stuff happening to people.
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sigh... then can you delete it or something if I'm going to keep getting beat over the head for it?
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Nahh leave it. Its helps create awareness.