Effectlivly Stopping.

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Alright, my life is great lately, but still when ever i see a razer or something sharp it still makes me sort of want to cut. Did i in some sense become addicted? I really cant do it now, i have no idea where i'd hide it and i really dont want to risk losing greg, but still i get a shrill excitment just even looking at one. Is ever any way to Effectivly stop, or will i jujst have to deal with this forever?

Maybe you should put them away so that you don't see them.. until you need them. Not looking at them could help.. maybe?

It all depends on you girlie. Self control, temperance, you're independent and stronger than that. Don't let something as petty as this control you.

nah, ive got a really addictive personality. Thanks helms, i know its a problem. I didnt know you could get addicted to something like cutting, but it must be right? psychologicly, my mind is telling me i need it for release.

As Helms said, you have to frigure out what your triggers are before you can fully beat the need/want to cut with razors. I used to smoke cigarettes and I used them as my escape (it's kind of hard to explain but that's what they were), and I'm still having a hard time with wanting to pick them back up. I've smoked on and off since I was 9 or 10 and I'm still trying to figure out what my triggers are. Someone clicking a lighter will give me the urge to light one up, someone popping open a beer makes me really want one, and there are so many other things that make me want to start puffing away. It's all psychological, and Java you're bigger than your addiction, you can and you will beat it sweetie.

The thing is, i dont see any reason to stop other then greg doesnt want me doing it cause it worries him, but i know what im doing and i wouldnt kill myself.

Im just having trouble seeing the logic behind stopping aside from loosing him. I mean, I know what im doing, i wont kill myself, im not hurting anyone but myself, I enjoy it to an extent. (Oh god your all going to comit me now, arent you?) And I cant even talk about this with him, cause he'll think im crazy. I took psychology, and i know im exhibiting behaivor or rationalizing among other things, but its different when your the person doing it. BLAH! Im causing making more questions then answers. (And steve dotn you dare say go get proffessional help)

And steve dotn you dare say go get proffessional helpIt's not a fool-proof solution, but have you tried it? At worst, it won't do harm.What would you tell someone else in your situation if you were giving them advice?

Its difficult because i think im perfectly logical

But like, Im not really hurting myself or anyone else. It has no affect on my body other then the loss of a little blood, and a scar. I guess im just missing the whole why its wrong part. Im not one of those depressed at the time suicidle people, i have no intention on ending my life in the future. I found out that you really can get addicted to it " endogenous opiates" the body releases it self and gets you addicted to cutting/buring ect(I really do not want to go and get professional help unless its absolutely necessary so please guys help me here)

Im not really hurting myself or anyone elseThat's just it sweetie, you are hurting yourself and other people. You're physically injuring yourself by taking a razor and cutting yourself and you yourself have said you want to stop because you don't want to lose "Greg" (which in a way is saying you don't want to hurt him... which you would if you continue to do this). Check out this site (I don't know if it'll help but it's worth a shot) Self Injury

Thank you so much, that really really helped.I talked to greg today, about all the cutting cravings ive had lately and he told me that he would stick with me if i wanted to keep cutting, but that he couldnt see any long term in it. Im going to be in alaska until June (my boss said we could go home or stay up here for a while) greg decided to stay up here with me. since im going to be here so long, i thought it would be a good idea to get some proffesional help, so i am going to. Im just worried about what he's going to say. Has anyone else here gotten a shrink? like what happens?

I just keep thinking that im fine when i know im not. I think i only slept for 5 hours this whole week, and im going on a postal organizing spree. seeing the therapist should help, but i dont see him until tuesday. Im just really nervous, cause even thought i dont think anything is wrong with me, someone else will.

Im just really nervous, cause even thought i dont think anything is wrong with me, someone else will.First of all, it's no one's business. Secondly, what would you think if someone told you they saw a counselor?You really need to address your sleeping issue. Chronic sleep deprivation is bad for your body, and bad for your ability to think clearly. Some recent study showed that people who got six hours of sleep per night for two weeks straight were as impaired as people who didn't sleep at all for two days.

I cant help the sleep thing, ( i really really dont want to take any sleeping pills, last time i did i didnt go to sleep but instead just slumped on the couch tired as hell) how long until a therapist tells you whats wrong and how to fix it?

how long...You need to go and find out. It's not like your getting your spark plugs replaced.The sleeping issue is a serious one. Stanford (and certainly other hospitals and clinics in the Bay Area) has a sleep laboratory for people with disturbed sleeping patterns. You are a poster child for disturbed sleep.

rotfl like i said though, i wont be back in the bay area until june (and god i hope i sleep before then) tuesday seems so far away.