I'm a bit confused right now (well that's not unusual) but moreso than usual. The past weeks I've been staying up till the AMs due to all the exams and papers for prison I mean school. Don't really get a day off. Weekdays I wake at 6, Saturdays at 8 for "work", and Sundays at 6 for church. If I could afford to sleep for days I would. There's this paper I have to write not for school but for some contest that my parents aremaking me do. The chem teach has given us something similar but different... My parents made this whole deal about it so Thursday I didn't finish till 3 am and my sister went over it today since she's so perfect. I thought... THOUGHT I did well. Obviously I didn't and you know what she said? She said it was "crap". Rude much? Yes. 3 am. And it's...crap. So she tells me all the problems with it and nobody likes to be corrected but when I say I don't understand my mom yells at me... why is she yelling first of all? Because I don't get it? I feel extremely dumb, stupid, and air headed right now. Really just confused. Academically challenged. I don't know what they're saying. I'm not on college level which is what is expected of me. I had these water things fall from my eyes and I got yelled at for that. Scratched the skin off my leg (by accident) and got yelled at for that. I guess because I acted this way I can't think straight. I didn't think it's that serious but they bring up the whole "you're a black girl in America" speech. I hate that speech. 21st century guys not 1800s. It just... it stinks being stupid.
Oh and I stink at writing. I write stories and scripts but not things that are forced. I can't write for my life. :frowning: