Bad Addiction!!!

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i have an extremely annoying addiction, people have told me i have a problem but idk. it feels natural to me... i grew up in hialeah florida but live in CAlifornia now, but the south style has stayed wit me, i can usually control myself but it feels like i have some kind of terets, when i get pissed the ghetto side of me comes out. i start cussing the guy out, heres an example,nigga who the fuck you thank u is doug, fuckin witta nigga like me mang, ill lay yo bitch ass out mang, nigga you dont know what dey do in da south mang, so step yo ass out befo you get yo grill rearranged nigga!!!i dont mean thats exactly what i say, or how aggressive i say it, i meant that example as i use ghetto termonology profiently when im angry or when it slips out. like teretsi dont say nigga as in a degrading word for a black man, i say it as comparison to how some white people say dude. im also infatuated with du rags, 4xl tall + shirts, and my pants hanging roughly 5-7 inchs above my knees. i feel like someone swallowed all hiphop and threw it up in my head. im infatuated with long cloths. and if i wear a shirt smaller then 3xl tall i feel wierd, like someone has put me in a box, idk whats wround. and if the shirts are short i feel naked because my legs actually show.WHAT IS WROUNG WITH ME!!!!

   Where in CA are you? I'd say if you want to break that addiction take a trip to Compton and go into a convenience store, OR even you nearest Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles and pull some of that out. I'm almost guarantying you'll be cured. I'm not saying you'll be alive... But cured. 

That's not an addiction (which is a serious thing). That is an obsession with destructive behavior, or an intense desire to impress people.

Whichever, my hope is that you'll grow out of it.

I liked my idea better. :wink:

i am the mature and futurely successful person you believed me to be. i am sufisticated, the life that i currently live is not a thug life, its not a gangsta life, i guess what u can say is that i am addicted to the hip hop life style, and in reply to the guy who said that i should try that in compton, uhh about 3/4 of my friends are black, and they consider me black, now matter how light my skin is. i am actually part black, my dad is like 1/2 black or something, my hair is strange, if i use regular soap (the bar) it gets really wirery and wavy, but if i use conditioner, it gets curly and thick and very beautiful (as my avatar shows) but if i use just shampoo it gets straight and rough, (like goths/emos) idk my body is strange, alot of my family is dark, but thats cause they live in florida and get tanned alot, my skin i guess darkens depending on how much sun i get, but when i get tanned and begin to peel i only peel a little but after my skin is darker then from before i got the tan, and it keeps that color. unless of course if i restrict myself from sun, but that happens to every bodys skin... idk im sooo strange. and to the people who say that im lucky that it takes me hours to cum, its not exactly the best thing in the world, i cant have a quickie. if i lose the girls g spot, then its like laying back and doing nothing. but this rarely happens

K- I'm not a guy I'm a chick.And I still stand by what I said. You aren't going to be able to go in a place out of your territory and act like you're something you're not, and not get a a$$ woopin' I don't care what color you are. The "hip hop life style" is for posers and you'll be treated as such if you act that way in places like that.

i know this sounds sorta crazy but my plans for the future is to be the first trillionaire, and i mean like a civilian not a fucking government associate or the damn president, i plan on owning most of the multibillion dollar companys and franchises, and i plan on owning these not for the fame, but for the financial freedom that it will provide my family for so many generations. and like i stated before i dont usually talk like that, i may dress in really baggy cloths and such but i do make myself presentable, ask anybody i always make great first impressions. didint i make one with you guys helms? and in the south, it doesint really matter what color you are, you are allowed to say nigga, in front of any race, in hialeah, you aint considered no body but a person, there are no colors. well thats my word, and forgive me for reffering to you as a man, my bad lol. but even in california ive gone to compton, chilled with bloods, hung out wit people from MS13, in fact i have a very good friend from there, which provides me with sorta protection, i also have an extremely good friend that i sorta consider my brother who WAS from pacoima criminals, when i met him i told him if he wanted to be in our family he needed to change (my mother had been trying to change him for a while already) and that i looked up to him as an older brother, since i never had one. i told him that i wanted him to leave all of that thug shit behind, not for him, not for my mom, but for me, if you die imagine the traumatization ill get from that shit, it would be soo difficult for me, and i will prolly go down your same path, and end up dieing by the gun. so ______ (cant say his name) plz just leave it in your past....now he went from completely bald to his hair in a pony tail, he hasint spoken to his "crew" in 2 years, and hes contimplating removing his tattoos.god bless my words. OH p.s. my grades in 9th grade are,P.E. = AEng = ASci = B (on the verge of A) Geometry = AFresh Studys = BWood Shop = Athose were the last grades i recieved, i do believe i have all A;s right now. but im still not shure i will inform you once i get my report card.

i go to independent studies, basically kinda home schooling, and freshman studies is what Fresh Studies is.

Go to Harlem wearing a sandwich board sign that reads "I HATE NIGGERS" like in Die Hard III.

Wow. I am so deeply offended by this post that I have nothing to say

i live in nyc and i can tell u that harlem is not that bad

Yeah now it isn't, Bill Clinton even has an office there. Back in '95 or '93 though when they made Die Hard III: With a Vengenge much of New York City was still a piece of shit, Harlem was pretty bad.

The hip hop thing is dead outside of the hood and MTV.Actually i dont think that is true.. i live in a town of 8,000 people and there are many many wiggers/wanskters and even a few real gangsters... All im trying to say is everywhere ive been ive seen some people dressing hip hop.. from whites/blacks/hispanics/asians... any color.

In reply to: All im trying to say is everywhere ive been ive seen some people dressing hip hop.. from whites/blacks/hispanics/asians... any color. Football doesn't build character. It eliminates the weak ones... And hip-hop culture exposes the weakest of characters.

I never said it was a good thing.. imo it represents something that is not good.. i.e being a gangster and selling drugs.

this is what I mean!! goodness.....

Was my post offensive to you?I didn't mean it to be.

No it's ok. I'm going through a breakdown anyway.

Are you okay?Can we help?Hang in there Sweetie!

Eh. It's ok. It's something I have to deal with on my own. Thanks though.