Roulette<3

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  • Welcome to the board, and thanks for your honest questions.

    Are you seeing a counselor or psychiatrist? I think that would be a good idea. I think there is a possibility you might have anorexia. But, if you do, you are well on the way to recovery. I say this because you have an awareness of it and were able to see yourself as thin. That's good. I think you would be a great client and would have a good recovery.

    I also love the way you externalized "criminal" and "intelligence". Either you picked that up from a really good therapist or you are the kind of insightful person that would herself make a good therapist.

    Screw the whales, save the subjunctive!

  • Thank you. :]

    Yes I am seeing many people for therapy.
    I think I'm just beginning to open up to myself, and I didnt even know I wasnt opening up before. For the therapy, I can't open up whatsoever. They seem to think I do, but honestly "Synoptic" was the first time Ive ever been able to ,even come close to, expressing the words in my head. But as I reread it, it seems less of an achomplishment, and a very very minute[adj.] summary, and theres so much more left to be told. Yet, I don't even know yet. I'm working on it, I think?
    I only wish I could understand myself. My mind is so complex, and I dont even know how I know that much!

    "Criminal" and "intelligence" were just what came into my head as I was trying to figure out how to visualize my thoughts, and turn them into words.
    <3

    Roulette<3

    Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a ...

  • Just keep in mind that progress is made in baby steps, not major leaps.

    Why do you feel you can't open up to your therapist(s)?

    Screw the whales, save the subjunctive!

  • Because I don't even know myself, not in the usual way that sentence is said, but more in a form of multi-personalities.mildly.

    Can you help me out with this question;
    I took m temperature today, 95.4, then about ten minutes later 95.2. My moms was a normal 98.3. So our therm. isnt broken. What could that mean, having a low temperature?

    Roulette<3

    Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a ...

  • Wow, I can't help you with the temperature thing. I'm not a doctor - don't even play one on tv. But you might want to get that checked out if it persists.

    As for opening up to a therapist - I would think that one of the best ways to get to know yourself is to...open up to a therapist, no? The point of therapy is to help you understand yourself better, what is causing you to make the choices you're making, how to make better choices, ets. To not open up to a therapist cause you don't know yourself well enough is like waiting to go to a doctor until you're not sick.

    Screw the whales, save the subjunctive!

  • Where are you measuring your temperature? Some regions of your body are much more accurate than others. If you want a really accurate measurement, then a standard mouth (or armpit) thermometer won't work well, although the armpit should be more accurate than your mouth.

    Neo-Cortex, Frontal Lobe<br />Brainstem! Brainstem! <br />Hippocampus, Neural Node, Right Hemisphere...

  • YesI tried it in my mouth. I want to get a new thermometer.
    I think I'll try the armpit thing too. Thanks. :]

    Roulette<3

    Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a ...

  • Well I can't ever find the right words to explain what I'm talking about. I just feel like no one will get what I mean, you know? It's probably normal, but I guess maybe everyone feels that way. I just have so much to say, that I get lost and don't say anything at all. I'm not used to letting out my feelings. ever.

    <3

    Roulette<3

    Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a ...

  • I can relate to the way that you're feeling. I never really asked for help from anyone when I felt like I needed someone to help me. I... didn't trust other people, and I was too afraid of hurting the little pride I had left back when I needed help with depression. I was very self-concious, and I worried that asking for help would make me look worse than I already felt. I wish I would have looked for help a few years ago, it might have helped with some issues that it took me a few years to get over, and in some cases am still getting over. Honestly, this site was one of my first attempts at really opening up.

    Opening up may be tough, but it will get easier the more effort you put into it. Like anything, it takes practice. If you're not used to sharing your feelings, then it won't be easy for you to comprehensively share them with others. Over time, it will get easier because you'll have learned what works and it will seem more natural to you.

    Neo-Cortex, Frontal Lobe<br />Brainstem! Brainstem! <br />Hippocampus, Neural Node, Right Hemisphere...

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