thas I think back to my childhood, the memories that flood my mind fill my eyes with tears. I was happy then. I had many friends, some close to 100, some my own age or younger. and now look what I've become. Through the moves that my family has made during my life I have been transformed into one of e people I said I hated and pitied when I was in 6th grade. I lived in new york until I was 12. I still go back to visit my life time friends. I love New york and will always consider it my real home. And then, suddenly, we moved to Kentucky where I was judged by public school children and so transformed from my once tom-boy and quiet nature that I didn't know myself. It was horrible. I despise that place. I lived out the hardest times of my life there. the changes from girl to teen, the changes from one who shows her uniqueness to one who has let herself be smoothered by the judgements of others. And now... well now I'm just starting to get my life under control since the trauma of harrasment by peers; they're finally starting to except me again! oh. and this last part of my life has taken place in vermont. very different from Ky, basically the opposite of it. I'm almost 16 now for those of you who haven't read my previous posts...
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Just a thought, I'm sry if it's totally off topic
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I'm feeling for you dear. But have hope. You'll be yourself again someday. After school is over you can spend the time you need to find yourself again and be happy.
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yes, it's very beautiful here, the drivers are so polite after new york, lol. but people in my class hold grudges forever and it sucks.
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oh i can relate, i've never stayed in a school for more than 2 years. everytime i had to make new friends, and usually i was bullied at the new place, and that lowered my self-esteam to the point where i didn't talk to anyone and kept my head down all day. But now in high school i found some friend i can relate to and i keep my head up high and open to anything. Now i try to forget the past because everytime i think of it i can't stop crying. I mean they fucking made fun of me on the bus and when we got off the bus everyday.....yeah during elementry i basically had no friends
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yeah. I remember my first experience of being hurt by my "friends". I believe I was about 5 or 6. me and one of my friends were on the lawn and she told me that she didn't like her and my other friend, but not to tell. I told the other friend because I was her friend too. and then they through it in my face be telling me that they were testing me. and then 2 of my friends were really crue to me and wouldn't play with me. it was really sad. lol. and then all during middle school I was totally shy and like never talked to anyone at all.
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but highschool got alot better for me cause i became a bit more popular, lol ur 5 or 6 year old friend were bitches :P
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yeah. but now we're good friends like always, I always forgive people...that's good. see, maybe you're not unlikable!
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no i have quite a few friends now but elementry was hell cause kids were so imature
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thank you kisses. yes, I'm definitely looking forward to the end of high school and middle teen years.
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yeah, it sucks for me right now because i'm the oldest in my class because my parents put me into school a bit late and most of my classmates are so much less mature than I am it's torture. I mean come on! they should fucking get over the middle school humor! i find myself hanging out with the older classes, they're nice.
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some of my friend are really wierd though, they say stupid stuff but they are really smart, like all of my friends including me are in the top 30 ranked in our school of 544. they make wierd noises to get attention, sometimes i just wanna say shut the fuck up but i dont, and they are like really against cheating so i can't get any homework outa most of them so.....
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you're in the top 30 (which is awesome!) ! that's awesome! lol. I think i'm in the top 30 of my school too, but we only have like 40 people in our school. lol.