Ok so in will start from the beginning. I met this girl a month ago, a really nice girl that I connected with right off the bat. Now I'm sort of a no strings attached type of guy at this point in my life, so for a girl to catch my interest romantically is big!
We started with a movie, and from there we never stopped talking. I mean we would talk 24/7 on the phone, would see each other every chance we could and we couldn't keep our hands off of each other. It wasn't even sex we would just kiss for hours at a time and it was amazing, non sex needed we just enjoyed cuddling, kissing, talking and being with each other. It brought me back to the first time I was falling in love.
We both had mutual friends that we didn't want to know about our relationship so we kept it a secret. We would see each other every night, spend the night, we have so much in common and i really thought we might fall in love. So here comes the problem, she has man issues.....worse than i thought to. She has this mentality that all men are liars, cheaters and will fuck her over and I never found out why. So here's where our problem is.
Saturday night we went to a friends house one of the ones who wasn't supposed to know some kept it a secret. I had no desire to keep it a secret. The night goes on and I see the friend hitting on her the whole night, and she just sat with him and played back...so it seemed I was getting drunk. When she saw me in the kitchen she would try to flirt but then she would go back and sit with him and do they're thing. I had a feeling, a gut feeling they were going to fuck. So I kept drinking and let my anger get ahold of me and I told her later in the night that I don't think we should be together if she wants to keep this a secret. I was a fool to tell her that and she said I'm okay with that!
So I leave, get home and realize how stupid I am and I start texting her apologizing. She replied aggressively every time and then told me I wasn't ready for a relationship and that she was going to hang with this guy then goodbye!
So I wake up sober and text her apologizing again. She replies frantically saying how sorry she is, she was just drunk and that we should have never kept it a secret. She starts telling me how much she cares for me, how great I am and when she said I made a mistake I stopped her and said I knew you were going to fuck him.
She replies, in was drunk and angry that you broke up with me, in thought you were going to go sleep with another girl so I slept with him to get even with you, she said she doesn't even remember it.
She's told me now that I'm all she needs, she has admitted to being fucked up, she's poured her heart out with apology and has confessed how much she cares for me. She says she feels I'm her and she doesn't know why she did what she did. She's been crying the past 2 days straight, can't stop thinking about me, she basically hates herself for this.
I feel the whole situation could have been avoided by both of us. We both agreed we thought the relationship was headed towards love. But how do you sleep with another guy like that if you really care this much for a person. Does she really care for me? Does she just have severe man issues? Am I a fool to feel the way I feel and want to still try this with her? Does this girl care for me and truly think I am her and that we could have fallen in love, she does not seem like the whorish type at all........but I wonder at this point, did I just get played, am I still being played? What do I do.