i feel no way out i have been in the same rut for many years. and every one who trys to help i push away, i have tryed gettin betta on me own and am gettin no i feel its getting worse i want to get help and get better. but somedays i lie in bed not wanting to get beter, each time i've nearly got there it like it all come crashing down and that some one has it in for me, its like what ever i do is wronge and im punishing my self i dont want to but have and over the years its become addictive i want out and i want a normal life but dont feel like this will ever happen for me . xxx kez xxxx
I feel like no way out
As I am thinking
to commit suicide,
I water the plant.
a hope sparkles inside
It sounds like depression. Can I suggest that each day you try to do something new?
I used to live in Hampshire :hugs:You Just got to motivate yourself I think. Its hard, I feel similarly right now, but my mum just had at me about it and now I am doing something. On friday I have an appointment for counciller and then meeting this lady about doing volentary work. Maybe you should try the same?