I have been depressed since i was 10 and i am 14, almost 15. I use to be so skinny and helthy and active, then i started my 'leap into depression' and well I dont have many friends, never had a boyfriend and no one that lives near me has ever had a crush on me. i sit on my computer most of the day unless im at school or at one of my 3 friends houses doing a school project. i am 14 and weaigh almost 200... my depression mainly causes me to get depressed and eat alot and keep to myself and cry alot. most people that are depressed tend not to eat but i eat more then i should and am now afraid ill get out of hand and become obeise when im older just because of this. i have also commited suiside several times and gone to the hospital once for it. sadly i always feel like doing it again just so i dont have to live my life over weaight and depressed. your probably thinking something along the lines of ' get outside and exersize ' but its hard for me since i dont like being seen by people and even if someone looks at me i think there talking about me or thinking about me like ' boy is that chick fat '. i have a VERY low self estime... i know ive rambled on but i guess im done.. sorry for waisting your time
Eating and depression
I eat more when I'm depressed (or stressed) too.
The first thing, it seems to me, is to get the depression treated. Of course you need to get out and exercise more - and that will help the depression - but if depression and self-esteem issues prevent you from doing that, you need to get them treated first.
(You could, though, perhaps get a membership to a gym or an exercise class. There are lots of people there with exactly the same issues as you, who won't look down at you.)
There's no way you are wasting anyone's time, talking about this. There are so many people who feel the same, and it helps them to know they are not alone.