Question About Suicide Attempts

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I have a question for anyone here who has tried to commit suicide. After you made your attempt and were waiting to die, did you regret it?

9 Years Old - Sat in the middle of the road trying to get run over by a car in my devolopment (barely any traffic) because my parents wouldn't get me a toy or something.14 Years Old - Tryed to slit my wrists with a dull exacto blade, managed just to give myself really good scratches but ultimately decided wrist cutting was fucking gay and emo and wasn't my thing.Still 14 - Crushed up a ton of asprin, OTC sleeping pills, and some herbal sleep aid I found, mixed it with some scotch I stole from my dad and tried to drink it. I laid down in bed trying to die and 5 minutes later puked for about 2 hours and felt like shit for days.15 - Got in some kind of argument with my parents one night and just walked around outside wishing I was dead, I walked like 4 miles to the tracks and just sat down thinking I'd die by train. I waited there for a while before I realized the only train that uses those tracks is some scenic tour that only runs seasnally and in the daytime.15 1/2 - Tried to hang myself with a cord, jumped off a chair in the basement and the rafter the cord was tied to snapped. I wouldn't have died anyways, just strangled for a bit even if the cord supported my weight, and if I stranged odd are I would have just pulled off the cord because it hurt.And lots of other times. I guess I never truly attempted, all the times I tried or thought about trying I was pretty hesitant.I think I need to kill myself just to prove I have the balls.

hmm .. not sure what to say in reply to your post but this .... i tried it and was very nearly successful ......ok .. so do i regret it .. when i came around and saw the hurt that i had done to the people around me and how much i was hurting them i would then say i felt guilty but to this day am not truely sure if i do regret it or not ...XxX

And Im glad you're still here.. When people kill themselves they sometimes feel like no one will care.. But if you would have died it would have affected me and I live in a different country

ive tried 2 kill myself many times before.ive had the blade to my arm and chicken out before i cut myself and bleed to death.i regret not doing it.i know no one would care.

I attempt it all the time..its my job... but i do it so it looks like and accident!

How is it your job, PurpleStain?

entertainment! I like to entertain people and usually get hurt while doing it, but its not really my job but i found it to be now past theses years

i dont think ive every SERIOUSLY attempted it really. just liked 2 mess with the thort and maybe screwmyself up abit ( i was pretty good at makeing it seam an accedent when it was so oviously NOT! sum ppl r so stupid) mostly i had fun thinkin how id do it. u gotta b creative about it and realistic. i knew i wouldnt have the balls 2 slit my wrists and, as previously stated here, thats totaly lame and "emo", not 2 mention very uncreative

I dunno...It kind of sickens me to think that people use suicide or the idea of suicide for fun and entertainment.

Well we know someone who doesnt watch any thing eXtream...

I do the extreme shit on a regular basis, Im not looing for death in it, Im looking for life.

eXtream is kick ass, doing acid drops of like the 2nd floor is the best if you know how to land a skateboard lol

Iv been over 800' up a frozen waterfall by kicking crampons and ice pics in and moving forward and up, Iv clmbed rock and spent more hten one night on the side of a cliff tied in toa portaledge, Iv been so far into cave systems that we had to climb up the ropes to get out over 1 mile inside the mountain and probally another mile of stone and dirt over our heads, vertical caves,ffalways one rope rapping down in to the darkness with head lights on, bungeed off of towers and bridges, totaled a hang glinder during flight school and destroyed 4 motercycles, only 3 of wich were mine. That last one by jumping a 6 foot wide by about 12' deep ravine by hopping off a sage brush and a rock, I made it but I sure as hell didnt stick the landing, many stitches and bruises and busted shit resulted. Iv been climbing rock for 8 ? 9? years and ice for about 2 years less. I leave skatboards to kids, I quit them when I got a car, I was useing them when tony hawk was just getting a name made. skatboards are for kids.

Pretty cool. Mountain biking is kickass too so is BMX and riding a shopping cart down a hill is so fucking awsome its greatest thing anyone can do...good thing pain is temporary!

Chance,If one day you die some impressive death, could you please leave in your will an instruction for someone to post how you died on this site? It would be pretty lame if you just went away with no explanation like SteveA did.

I dunno...It kind of sickens me to think that people use suicide or the idea of suicide for fun and entertainment. i dont mean 4 fun. thats fucked up. belive me i wasnt sitting in my room haveing a barrel of laughs over this. i was a very mentally sick person back then. i didnt have the balls 2 kill myself so i just thort about it. just flirting with the idea if u get what i mean, tho i dont expect u 2. i was fucked up, and a lota things i did didnt make any scence.i just liked to think about how id do it. it was my "just incase", my "security blanket" like, it was just nice 2 no that if things got 2 bad, id no what 2 do. it was my escape route and im sorry that this "sickens" u but i was messed up. and i sicken myself with what i was like back then 2.

hmmm....just realised u wernt actually talkin 2 me......thot this was respose to sumthing id said that ive just realised was in a different post, not this 1. hehe sorry. i get a bit defensive sumtimes.

fThats an idea, but I dont plan on being dead anytime soon. by the time I kick it I should think all the people that know me here will be gone and this site long forgotten.Of course who knows ? I may take fall tomorow when I go climbing in South WIllow canyon, fuck knows Iv taken enough falls there in the past.

South WIllow canyon? Right, so if you don't post over the next few days, we know where to look.