Ok here we go. I need thoughts on this one.
Ok. I kind of have a boyfriend. Were on a break though.
I been fucking this other guy though. And Im 2-3 weeks late. :frowning: Hes the only guy Ive done within like 4 months so if, god forbid, im pregnant itd be his.
the fucked up shit about it all is my "bf" treats me like a queen hes the epitome of every girls' dream. also i have severe dyslasia that wont quit. (that means i have precancerous cell growing rapidly) doctors have tried to take it out but it came back twice...im scared theyll have to take out my cervix and this may be my only chance to ever have a kid. so im torn between - hurting the best thing that ever happened to me and possibly losing him, missing out on a child of my own, giving up my life so to speak, and the thought of killing something inside me that was self inflicted seems wrong too.
not to mention the guy i was doing im not with i have no feelings for same with him as far as i know.
part of me wants to tell him and part of me doesnt.
i want to wait to find out then let him in but i also feel like i dont wanna burden him like i just want to either have it or not (assuming the worst) and not even deal with this. but thats irresposible...
About my "bf"... i have 2 options...
[polloption=Just tell him fuck you so he can get over me w/o feeling betrayed.]
Pray for meeh. =]
Hopefully Im not pregnant then this will all be irrelavent.
And I wont have to deal with anything...
btw. is there any "right" or "wrong" or will i prolly always wonder what if?