Well then you're not my type, he he!
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aww cheer up, boo.
There are times when I pretty much feel the same way you do. Not to the full extent but somewhat. You sound very poetic when you describe it. Me, I just curl up into a ball amongst my stuffed animals and cry till I feel I'm just about done. Unfortunately, I don't think my "solution" would help you because... well I'm a weirdo. You know this, I know this, the whole world knows this. I watch Lord of the Rings for crying out loud. There was one time I kept rewinding that scene when Sam tells Frodo he'll never leave him (they're not gay ppl shut up!). I think I recited that over and over while rewinding like... a hundred times. And when I broke up with my ex I watched one scene in Return of the King (the one when Eowyn brings Aragorn the cup) so many times I think I wore the DVD out. I know sometimes it's hard and almost beyond recovering but you just have to hang in there. Easier said then done yes, but thing's will get better.
I used to think love was that tingly feeling you got when you were around someone you liked. LIES! It's lust! I think it takes alot to realize and understand that you love someone. And people use love so loosely. Like when they say "I LOVE Cameron Diaz!". They don't love her they just think she's gorgeous. But I doubt they love like they do their parents or something. Like my dad would say "I love you" to me all the time. But how the heck are you going to tell me you "love" me when you never call or the only time you call is to ask for money or some other nonsense. I'm not saying my dad doesn't love me. I don't know. I love him, even though I don't know him like that but I know I love him because I would die for him. I think that's kind of what love is. When you love someone so much you would risk your life for them. To be honest, I don't think my dad would risk his life for me... but I don't want to judge even though I think I just did lol.
Seriously though... hang in there because I'm coming to Ireland!!!
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Hmm , i am nowhere near as literate or poetic as you so bare with the layman's terms.Most of our lives is spent looking at the world through tinted glasses , or through that ideal that the grass is greener on the other side. It often can take the smallest of events in our lives to all of a sudden bring as to an often abrupt realisation of what it means to live or love or even to die.The world may offer nothing but shit , but if you go looking for shit soon enough you will find it , if you go looking for happiness it is easily found , especially in younger children who find it soo much easier to express what they are feeling.(However i love to watch all of the people in buses and in trains , i like to try and imagine them , what they do , where they are going where they have been. I can also look out the window onto the same landscapes and still find something new that i haven't noticed before , and it really is the little things that make me smile and make me happy when i am down. However i have to think about this all when i am alone so that occasionally i can just close my eyes and try to declutter what seems to be an endless mess in my mind )This is the same for adventure , if you go looking for it you can find it , ok it may not be the same as saving Frodo from giving into the temptations of the rings (for Japanfan) it can be as small as getting on a new bus and just seeing where it goes.I guess for me , to love someone is to be willing to sacrifice anything just to ensure there happiness , and to let them in close enough and trust in them not to hurt you.Its the way that when he or she looks into your eyes they can tell in almost an instant that you are hidden behind a mask of joy, or they can tell the differences between those smiles we stick on and the smiles that are from deep down.Everyone is capable of love , you just may need to look for a different way to express it , or a different way to let it out of its box and dance around.I hope this is more than just a load of gobbledygook ,Torie
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Well than, all this time later and Im still in lust with Julie! I think thats good news, Im gonna have a cig with my coffee to celebrate!