I thought I was over my depression but lately things have taken quite the turn for the worst. I live with my parent (my father) and usually he's okay, only calling me names occasionally when he gets super drunk. My brothers, well we've always have had a love-hate relashionship so I don't dwell on that..My mother, we don't live with her because she kidnapped us kids when I was twelve. Anyways, life used to be okay. Now my father has turned really creul, saying and doing things he knows will just upset me, like calling me fat and useless and saying he's going to kill my cats. And my brother has been stealing my stuff, perticularily the food I buy for muyself, see I only eat dinner with the family and even then I usually have to add my own stuff because I have severe allergies and am lactosintolerant and a partial vegetarian. Anyways, I got sick of them behaving like that and have tried numerous times to get it to stop, but it usually ends up in shouting matches, and then people tell me I should just dissapear. Because of this, my suicidal tendancies have returned...I just cut myself for the first time in two years...I don't want attention or anything, I just want all this hate to stop. I fear if this keeps on, I'll do something crazy..I am in-between jobs at the moment and can't afford to buy new clothes, let alone move out. What should I do...Is leaving and breaving the streets better then this, should I try to check myself into a phyche ward so I don't do anything stupid? How do I talk to these (unreasonable) people without it turning into a screaming match, and leaving me in tears and feeling angry with myself. Any input is welcome. Thank you.
How old are you and are you still in education?
It sounds like it really sucks where you live. I doubt it is possible to communicate with the kind of people you live with. I would suggest you find something to aim for and just work for it, knowing things will get better. Clearly your going to have go somewhere else as some point. When have yourself a job again then you should ask around your firneds about who else would consider getting a place, and you could try flat-sharing, its alot easier than going it alone I imagine, but it really depends how old you are.
Dont just go out in the streets, its too dangerous with all the bad people out there. Suicide is also not a good option. Often the present sucks but whats importnat is that you work to make the future better, no matter how hard it gets.
What country do you live in? In the UK I know you would be able to get some face-to-face advice on planning for the future from Connextions or similar organisation, and I suspect there are probably similar organisation in the US and elsewhere.
I'm going into university after the summer ends...I just turned nineteen and have thought about moving in with friends..But unfortunatly I am low on them right now, and rent here seems to be really high. I'm in Canada...I'm hoping things will shape up soon...Hopefully I manage to find myself another job, one that's full time..So I can afford something asap. Thank you for taking the time to reply..I'm a little calmer right now.
Oh its good to hear your going to university, that will help in a number of ways! I take it its a university in the ccity you currently live in and thus doesnt involve you moving away?
Uni will be great for making friends and potentially meeting people who are wanting to flat-share. Also they are bound to have some kind of future planning help. It sucks having to wait all throughs ummer though, but at least you have uni to look forward to.