i have been cutting myself for about a year now but i have recently stoped self harming (mabey two weeks ago), and the thing is im still depressed but i dont want to start cutting again and i dont know what to do. i know at least one person who reads this will say talk to someone etc, well thats the reason i self harm, or at least one reason: i cant trust anyone (and yes i probably an paranoid.) u see everyone i know regards me as being unemotional and inable to be kind etc, so i have grown in to this role that people have made for me , as i already apear to fit the role i find it easy. for this reason i cant allow them to see my weekness, for fear of not being able to stop being emotional once i start, and i dont want to bring that upon them. i am 15 and have recently been involved in self harm. for me seeing my blood and feeling the physical pain reminds me that i am still a live, and that life has not beaten me yet, (and for that reason i have never gone further in killing my self than just suicidal thoughts.) Also for me the marks and scars that cutting leaves on my skin reminds me of that pain, both phisical, and emotional (the cause of the self harming), and so i am remided and hope to never go through that particular emotional pain again. however supressing emotions isnt wise but at the same time i can apreciate how hard it is for peopl to talk and trust other people with your emotions, thoughts and fellings. so for me the cutting represents haveing ur life essence being drawn out from you, and every time a little more of ur life essence is removed, u become less human , and more imune to the problems we all face in human existance, no matter how petty and insignificant they seem to be. after all, all problems and emotional issues affect the core of being human and there for, for me, cutting or phisical pain distracts from them problems and makes me stronger in the process.i dont know where to go from hear.thanks dont crack up, bend your brain see both sides, throw off your mental chains
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SELF HARM please read
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hi, are you receiving any professional help for your depression and self harm? if so what kind.
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thanks for reading my message people. no i am not recieving any professional help for my depression. and thanks HelmsmaN that means a lot. however i mean there is no one who knoe me personaly that i can talk to.
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your points very true
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From y own exsperince it does help to go and see a counsellor or to go to your doctor and see what he or she can help you with 9 times out of 10 they can refere you to the practise counsellor. Its best if you talk to some one anyone in facted. I held it in side me for years and now i talk to people about yeah ok now and again you may feel bad again but telling people how you feel and what you want to do about it can honestly really help.
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I am also 15, and have been self harming since i was 12. I hate the fact that i do it, and i ahve tried to stop many times before in the past. Back in sept i got myself pretty good, along with taking a bunch of pills with vodka, and got myself put into the psych ward for the weekend. This made me wake up, i dont want to be like that for the rest of my life. Instead of cutting, recently i have been cutting on an old bear that some1 gave me for that reason. My girlfriend gave me a teddy bear to do this on because she didnt want to see me hurt myself anymore. So far this has worked for me, yet i miss the part of seeing my blood and feeling my own pain, i understand what u were saying about the emotional and physical pain, but with the bear no one else has to know, and no one else will keep asking question and wondering. another thing would be try talking to a professional, i talk to mine about 2 or 3 times a month, unless things get really bad i see her more, she helps, just to get it all out and know it wont be all around school in a week. if nothing else work, keeping writing on here, and i will keep responding to you, just to give you a chance to get it all out. I hope you can find something that helps you, if i think of anything else i will let you know