i lost count of the time. oh well. its not important. oh, right, you want to know what the timing was of? i was yelling "KILL ME" for the longest time. yay for yelling! fuck off. you know one minute you're A-OK, wel...you're not GREAT but you're COPING...and thats like...all you can ask for, right? but then it fucks up for one reason or another and you're back to good old square one. if the thoughts dont kill you, the actions will. and so many thoughts invade your mind. and you just dont want it anymore. you DONT WANT IT anymore. you've got too much in your past...eating you up...you've got too much in your present...eating you up...and youve got too much in your future that you KNOW will eat you up. you know it'll fuck up. it'll do its damnest to kill you. it'll make you bleed again. you just fucking cry cos its all you can do. and you called this glamour? fuck off. i'd like nothing more than to be able to launch myself off a platform and into a train, but the truth be told - i'm just too fucking scared. you know when people say "i cant see a tomorrow." well i CAN see a tomorrow - and i dont fucking like what i see. its making my head pound, my heart pound...it all hurts so bad and its too fucking unbearable. and i KNOW i'm taking fucking liberties by whinging on about it here, and im sorry but i have NO ONE else to go to. i'm not even empty - i'm full up with pain. its a disease. and its killing me. cliche? oh yes. whatever. i dont care. i wish i had someone here. someone to actually fucking hug me. i dont care if you cant tell me it's going to be ok - i already know it wont be. but just hug me...and if its not too much to ask - care about me. i dont want to be alone anymore. i cant FACE being alone anymore. i sit here all day talking to people online...but i have no one here. dont fucking let me be alone anymore. i just wish someone would break into my house and shoot me. or tomorrow, on the way to work, the car would crash. just kill me. and i want him here. why did he have to go? all i ever did was be my best for him. just fucking kill me. so congratulations everyone - if you feel shit, depressed, suicidal...etc etc...just know theres another person out there tonight that is crying just as many tears as you...and feeling just as bad. Happy june 12th
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Meh
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HUGS N CUDDLES::
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Keep posting - I'm thinking about you, and hoping things get better.Hugs
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lol you put all your feeling in one post... you should try putting your feelings in a rhyming sort of thing... and sell it to some record company and make millions
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I don't think he posted that for someone to make jokes about it
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no joke i'm serious he could make millions... if i could put my feelings into words i would do exactly that
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I don't think he posted that for someone to make jokes about it
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fuck! you sound like me anon.
xept when i got car jacked i was only to happy the guy never killed me,i even thanked him.but before i did used to say i wish i'd get car jacked and killed,not anymore,it's not the way to go out.you feel unprepared at the potential moment of your death.pm me if you like,i really go through all that you mentioned.i mean just tonight i sat with a blade intending to cut my wrists,just couldnt. -
everybody's life sucks you knowit's part of nature