I guess my depression started when my parents got divorced. I was about 7 and didn't understand what was going on. Then my mom got remarried to a very angry stepdad. His two sons and my brother made of fun of me a lot and I felt really down. Then, my stepdad and my mom started having big fights, so my mom and I moved in with my neighbors for a little while. Then my mom got divorced. And becuase of all the negativity at the time I was very shy and unsocial going into middle school which caused other people to really outme down. That continued on for two years when my dad got remarried. It started looking better than because I liked my new stepmom and her stepkids. But then my mom started smoking and started drinking and often became drunk at night, even when my friends came over. That's when I started losing energy, oversleeping and never feeling refreshed when I wake up, I also started becoming irritable and started having random outbreaks where I start crying. And that's where I stand right now. So, why are you all depressed?
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Why are you depressed?
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to make an extremly long story short: the route of my depression is how overweight i am.
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i neva had a reason really, i just was
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People trying to use me when I was younger, an abusive mother, fighting in school, family splitting apart, deaths and near death experiences, moving often and not staying in touch with friends, getting sick of the bullshit and slowly shutting myself off, a lack of friends, brother disappears because of his drug addiction, constant tension with family, realizing I'm alone and sick of it. It's not any single thing. The last four years I've gradually been improving my situation, and the last year have made a lot of huge leaps by myself. I might be through the worst of it.
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just look at my post "why am i doing this to myself" here in this forum
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i think im depressed because i dont have any true friends anymore. things were so great in middle school and high school but now everyone is changing. i cant trust people anymore. i havent truly spilled my guts in years and i think its killing me. some of my "friends" have completely abandonned me and everyone else for their girlfriend or their boyfriend (so lame). i just cant wait for school to start up again in the fall. new school, hopefully new people.theres other reasons too, i guess.my grandma raised me for most of my childhood and now she doesnt even remember who i am...and thats really rough. i love my grandma so much but now she cant even speak coherently or take care of herself. its a really sad thing to see. i miss my grandma.i wont make this a long first post though so ill end it here.
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omg thats really sad. i would be really uspset too if my grandma forgot me. im really sorry. if you need to talk,just pm me, i'll be glad to help if i can. i know exactly what you mean about the friends part too. people change drastically, its really depressing when you think about it. but like i said, pm me if your down,and i'd be happy to chat
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social insecurity,inability to be satisfied with anything i do because of perfectionism, and overall because it's depression and doesn't need a reason.
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I bet the perfectionism and the social insecurity are related. Perfectionism is a great disabling burden.