What depression feels like

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Depression for me is like a huge inflatable weight inside my upper body pulling me down towards the floor. Whether I am sitting, laying or standing it will always feel the same and have the same effect.It wears me out and I get migraines because of this inner turmoil. My hair is turning grey (I am 24) and I have black bags under my eyes from all the stress.I get no enjoyment from life at all. My limbs ache, my teeth ache and I am losing vision in my eyes. It feels as though my depression is acting as a cancer and taking over my whole body.Soon I may be unable to move with paralysis like symptoms as the depression gets worse. It will continue to weigh me down and drag me towards the ground, leaving me breathless and unable to cope.My posture is poor, and my bones creak. Sometimes I can feel the depression inside my chest ripple downwards like small waves, each taking it in turns to pummell yet more life out of me.I see people my age and younger enjoying themselves in the street or in town, and imagine what kind of social lives normal, happy people enjoy after dark. With depression controlling my body, I can never be like them.

Wow, um...thats really sad. I have sometimes felt depressed, not enough to kill myself or anything. Is that really how you feel? You should see someone, there are alot of people who can help and will show you that life is better than the way you feel, or make friends and they will help liven you up.

Okay, first question: is all that real, or hyperbole? Second question: what is going on in your life that makes you feel this way?

Oh yes it's real. I'm just a loser and I cannot see a way out of it.

It's often easier for other people to see the way forward than it is for us. When you're too close to a problem you often can't see the wood for the trees. That's why a counsellor can be very helpful.

You didn't answer my second question.

I think what's going on in his life is that he feels like he can't connect with people; that he's lacking in socialization skills. He needs very much to get some kind of counseling, because, as Ineligible said, he can't really be objective about his issues. Starting counseling (psycologist, social worker, psychologist, etc.) would be key.

I'd agree, but I'd like to hear from him before I gave any kind of advice on what he might want to do....

For a lot of cotext, read his other posts under this user name, and his older posts under yANKEE. He also posted under a couple of othter IDs. The discussion has been going on for a long time.