This week ive had a major fucking wake up call, if u may nt know, ive split up with my gf, but we still talk as friends. Last night we were talking about my life, and she's a bit of a weird one, and so likes to improve peoples life per say.
Anyway, she tells me im boring, dull and lonely, its just these words have woken me up. Doesnt help either that this 'friend' told me that i'd die a "lonely old man", and (after i complained back about how hard my lifes been) "commit suicide, you wont have many friends to mourn you"
But im not bitching about the convo, its what she said, its true. Im currently nearing the end of the school holidays (im 15) and ive only left the house twice, once with some friends, another with my ex that went kinda badly. I have no clubs to go to, i have hardly no interests and my only friends lie at school, and even then its a low number.
im naturally shy, and despise cocky people, which my school is full of.
BUt i just want to break out of being boring, and dull and hopeflly through that gain some friends in my life. But i dont know how, i have no interests whatsoever, dont know how to gain or sustain interests either.