Scary

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i was just about to get ready to masterbate and trying to think of things to help me because there was nothing on tv to help me and i got (exited) about thinking about my cousin i was freaked out over that and didnt masterbate for days is that wrong of me to have my cousin excite me

anyone im kinda worried about this

All I can say is don't worry about it. You wouldn't be the first to have those kind of thoughts. And it should go away sooner or later.

is your cuz a guy or a gurl?

im a guy

Cousins are people, and ones you don't live with, so it's not surprising. In the US they are considered too closely related and therefore taboo, but this is not the tradition everywhere. Marriages of first cousins have been quite common in Britain.

Among idiginous British? Or among Middle Eastern and Asian immigrants?

Among indigenous British, especially in the upper classes a hundred years ago, when in some households the chances of meeting someone of your own class freely enough to form a relationship could be very low, except for visiting relatives.