Lets just hop right into it...I have this best friend who I had not seen for a while, we'll call him John. We had been friends since freshman year in high school (10 years back) but six months ago we got into this huge argument and decided to stop talking to each other for a while. Then a day before thanksgiving we start talking again and he invites me over to his place. To get to the heart of the matter, while neither of us got completely trashed, we were both pretty drunk. Before you know it we began talking about what our favorite kind of porn is. And then before you know it were watching some on the computer. And before you know it we are showing each other our dicks to see difference in size. He initiated and I said whatever I get naked all the in the YMCA so if you really care to see it that bad take a look. I still began to start feeling a little weird at the moment just the same, I mean its not a typical thing to go around flaunting you dick in front of your friend lol Regardless though I looked past it as if it was no big deal.Well at this point its getting late and were about to call it a night. We had always used to sleep in the same bed as if it was no big deal when he or I spent the night, because we always enjoyed chatting about random things or having "pillow talk" as we liked to call it. However the last couple of times I spent the night his roommate was around so he was like I don’t want him to think were gay so go sleep on the couch. I’m like oh whatever who cares we both know were not gay, but still just the same he felt uneasy about people knowing that we sleep in the same bed without a problem. In any case on this occasion his roommate was not around, but still just the same I told him Id sleep on the couch because it just became the common thing and on top of that John has been in a relationship with a girl for the past 9 months so I jokily said, I dont know what your girlfriend would think about this when he invited me to sleep in his room like old times. At that point hee was like Oh Whatever. So I took the offer up and shacked up in his room.Well as it has it we talked for a couple of minutes and I was like dude I’m glad we looked past what happened and got together tonight...big hug! So we hugged and man let me say that it was not our normal "hey man how’s it going" hug...it was this tightly locked intimate hug. It especially creeped me out when he was like this is comfortable lets go to sleep like this. Granted it was comfortable if maybe he was my girlfriend, but not my best friend. I mean I guess we spooned each other before and I didn’t have a probably with that but this was different to me for some reason.Well as it turns out for the next hour he keeps pretending like he’s sleeping and accidentally positioning his lips right in front of mine. I won’t lie after watching all that porn I was a bit horny and kinda turned on, but then my mind would immediately remind me that it was my best friend and not some hot pornstar and it would kind kill the hornyiness. Besides this behavior he rolling on top of me a couple of time and even used my thigh as a cushion between his legs. Well...and I cant believe Im saying this...we began making out for about a minute or two before I told him I cant be doing this. I told him we are on the verge of crossing a very fine line that I know I will be regretful of if this is to go any further, especially due to my strong Christian faith (no disrespect to gays, I’m not saying your going to hell or anything, but in general it is typically a taboo issue in the church. Once again I dont know where I stand on that matter, but for the time beginning that has no role in this conversation...so please don’t think I am a gay basher by any means...I happened to think some gay people that I’ve met are some of the nicest people ever. Hope Im in the clear with that lengthy explanation.) He kinda sighed and said you always gotta bring Christianity it in...this is not saying that the sigh was brought on by the fact that I did not want to continue, but because I tend to talk about my faith a lot and his just gets sick of hearing about it. Returning back to the story though, nothing more happened, and we promised that wed never tell anyone. While I thought it was going to bother me throughout the week knowing that this happened, it ended up being that I just let go of it as if it was no big deal and that it would never happen again. Now to get to the heart of why I wrote this:I personally do not think I am gay or bi. In fact I know I am not gay, I do not have any physical attraction to men, but I will be the first to admit that I am not homophobic like most guys. If you’re gay your gay and I don’t have a problem with it. It doesn’t mean that I wont hang out with you, talk to you, or see you differently your still the same as a straight person. To me I think this incident happened because I was drunk, watched porn, and had not seen each other for so long. If you would like to make any judgments on why you think this happened please feel free, I’m curious to know what people think, even if in the end you want to believe that I am gay or bi curious.In the case of my friend, I still question what the scoop with him is. It’s like yea he could have done it for all the same reasons that I did, but then again it makes me wonder because he has a girlfriend (I don’t, I haven’t had one for a year, so I should be a little horny…although not to the extent that I was on that night lol) Its like you could make out with her anytime, in fact they do so all the time according to him. The reason for this is because she is still a virgin and is unsure about having a sexual relationship with him so it’s the only think she likes to do. Now right there that might turn on a light saying well if he’s not getting any from her maybe he was looking to get some from somewhere else. I mean we do joke around how if I was a girl or if he was we’d have the best sex ever from what we know about each other. However, the funny thing is that I’m a virgin too just like his girlfriend and it is something that is pretty sacred to me. So besides the situation beginning gay, I also said it would be crossing the line, because I anything more than a kiss would be messing with areas that are pretty personal to me. I mean I don’t know, when we were young I always joked around with the fact that I thought John was gay, because he had the voice of that one Brady kid from the Brady Bunch that didn’t go through puberty. It would always crack me up to hear him talk and that it was got me to start up a conversation with him in the first place. Also sometimes he tells me that he hates when people think that he’s gay because he doesn’t watch or play sports. He was explaining to me when he was at his doctor’s office and how the guy tried to make conversation with him by talking about our city’s sport teams and when it was found out he had no knowledge of the teams, he felt that he was given a reaction like “What kind of guy doesn’t like sports…are you gay or something.” So I don’t know, I guess these are all just random facts that probably do not mean anything but do you think he’s gay, bi, straight? I mean like I said it’s not a big deal to me, but I’d just be curious about what some of you have to say, especially some of the gay members. Thanks. P.S. Sorry, I know, this was probably way longer than it had to be, but it was as short as I could make it.P.S.S. John is a really crappy kisser for the record lol
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Whats your impression on matters? InterestingTopic
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Wow, that was interesting. Welcome back by the way. Why does there have to be a label on your friend? I mean, does it matter if he is gay/bi/straight? And really, he may be wondering the same thing about you. If you want my opinion, I think you both were just being curious.
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Lets make it clear for the record...I was drunk not curious lol j/k Nah it really makes no difference to me whether he is gay or not, but I always like to analyze things, so this just yet another thing to try make sense of. By the way thanks for the welcome back Dlish...surprised Im remembered...its been a while. I feel so warmed and loved
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Ha, I remember your hot avatar of you. :wink:
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A lot of people become "bisexual" when they drink enough. The more you drink, the more you knock out the inhibitory parts of the brain (cortex), and the more the lower ("reptilian") brain can freely express itself.
What I'm trying to say (what DxLISHxISx_43 did say) is, why does it matter? If it makes you uncomfortable, then don't climb into bed with him again, especially after drinking.
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I don't think you or your friend is gay. As you said you were drunk and I have, not to the same extent as you have, had a similar experience and I am not gay neither is my friend who I was with. I think everyone has moments like these, just most never speak of it cause it is "taboo". Also just because your friend doesn't like sport doesn't mean he is gay, I know heaps of guys that hate sport, and none of them are gay. Ironically, some gay friends of mine love sport. Your friend might realise he "might" be gay in years to come, but I don't think that will change your relationship since you sound like a pretty open minded guy, which is ideal for you both. Hope this helps.