To anyone that reads this hello and sorry for being so long...I need some advice I have a lot of problems in my life right now. See I live with my grandparents my real parents kinda just left me with them they did a lot of drugs and fought with each other a ton. My grandmother was diagnosed with hepatitis c and the doctors expected her to die in the next 5 years that was in 1998, so shes been pretty lucky so far. But recently her liver has completly failed and the fluid is building up in her lungs and she has had breathing problems, so we got oxygen for the house and I thought everything would be ok from there and we could get her back on the medication that fights hepatitis c. But a week ago they found out she has cancer and ever since then ive been really deppresed much more then "normal". Im not sure what to do i have been trying to keep busy but i just cant like im usually a straight A student but my recent report card was all Cs and Ds. I have also been trying to hang out with my friends and get out of the house to avoid all of the yelling and crying and all of that but im also losing my best friend that ive known for 7 years. Hes hanging out with the "popular" kids now and i guess you could call me a loser because i dont really have that many friends. What I need help on is ive decided on commiting suicide, but i feel guilty about the few friends I will leave behind and my grandfather. My grandfather and I dont get along that much it seems like every time we talk it ends in yelling and screaming at each other but I dont know how he will take it if i do commit suicide. I think he would take it as insult or something, and I know I would have wasted so much by doing that and i really don't know what im going to do. I am just so deppresed and almost every night i end up crying while laying trying to sleep. And i know i cant tell my grandparents about this they already have enough going on.Well thanks for reading and pretty much any advice would be helpful at this point im just really confused and i dont know what to do. Sorry if i did the post wrong first time. Im just not sure if suicide is the right answer.
What should i do?
Firstly, What would suicide solve?And if you're religious, you won't even think about it! Cause then it would mean that your taking a gift that God gave to you and throwing it back into His face! You can't go trying to kill yourself every time the going gets tough! Now with getting that out of the way, you should really get in touch with your friends, right now you need their support and understanding. Your grandmother, talk to her, I know you think she has got a lot on her fork to worry about but she will be able to handle it much better than you think(she's been through 2 generations of people, remember)So get this whole idea of suicide out of your head RIGHT NOW!And if you really want, you can talk to shrink, or teacher, or me, I will also try to help you!
"...Sometimes you have to let go, just to see if there's anything worth holding on to..."
Dude I just came out of Rehab because of suicidal thoughts and attempts, though I must admit there were fun times at rehab, being the only male with 6 chics. eh well anywhoFirst off we don't know whats after death, so I suggest we wait and not be to eager. Second off not only will killing yourself also crush those who you love, but it may also make others suicide.Third off, you won't die and life moves on, it will cause problems for your intire family, alot of problems with authoritys etc it will not do well, it will screw them over with more then just being in pain over your death.Also you won't know if life is going to get better for you if you go killing yourself now. Yes your life seems to suck but trust me, me and my friends have been through alot too, but we're still her, and it's slowly getting better.just hold on give it time, suicide is not the answer. take this from someone who has already stabbed himself in a vital area and was sent to rehab. I was near completing suicide but I didn't.you shouldn't either. religious or not. weather you believe in life after death it doesn't matter. don't kill youself.