Hey everyone that remembers me, and everyone new.
I dont trust anything anymore. With people, I am very paranoid and have a tendancy to think people secretly dislike me or are out to get me and do stuff behind my back. Or I think I have done something very genuinely wrong and I beat myself up over it and yet later I often feel stupid for having thought I'd done soemthign wrong. That being said I do often say tactless things that can upset people.
I also dont trust anyone relationship wise. I have no problem talking to girls or anything like that, and am generally quite popular. Infact I've made alot of friends lately, though I keep suspecting them of stuff or think I've upset them when I'm not aroudn them. With girls I never flirt or try to get close to them, though I am very friendly and some have come to interpret this as flirtatious. The result was having to tell a girl I am not up for it, while another girl I suspect she thinks I like her (cos obviously no guy would text a girl unless he fancies her *rolls-eyes*) but I really just want to be everyones friend. You see I dont trust girls. Well, I dont trust them any less than I trust guys, but theres much less I would ever want to share with a guy anyway.
Essentially, I have very little trust in anyway, and I recognise that I am often irrationally paranoid. I wish I coould stop, I@ve been miserable all yesterday and today over my friends, with whom I've never argued or anything.