Hi..... Im so depressed right now...THe reason for that is that my life's dream has basically been crushed.I've always wanted to be a concept artist for video games. I love drawing.... well.. at least when I succeed....The truth is that I suck at drawin.... I mean sure... sometimes I cant pull off a nice drawing, not too flawey, almost perfect anatomy, but my skills are so.... meh... .It's like I have no style, and it's just... bland. I mean, I think it's safe to say thyat my skills havent developed since two years ago. I'm 18 year now. So... I asked a good friend(who is very, VERY good at drawing) to be honest with me.... WHy i just cant draw... =( And He did tell me i just dont have that spark or sumthing... It's been really devastating for me, and now he feels all bad too for being honest -- I feel so guilty for making him feel bad. But it's true... Im almost a fully grown adult... Well I am I guess... My brain doesnt take in new information as easily as it would have at a younger age even if I do start drawing more seriously and train... I'll just be a trained noob but never a pro and jeremy from #purPwnage" would say And it really hurts me, cos drawing was the one thing I could rely on. I've never felt like nr. 1 in anything, and people often told me im good at drawing... But im not...And Now im just really devastated. Cos the one thing I just felt a little special thing is gone. Im not smart or witty or even weird... im just bland... when people talk i almost never interfere cos im too dumb to come up with something, and when people talk to me, responses are so bland... that... They couldnt be any more bland.. :-/ Im just an empty shell.... I feel there's no purpose for me to live, as Im basically just a leecher of our society. I don't give anything back. God... I just really wish I could find that one thing to feel special about -- Now im basically nothing... damn...so much time wasted... I need help :(....I dont even know what kind of help i want... I just wanna lay down and never wake up again... ever...
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Help me please -_-...
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First off peoples tastes differ when it comes to things like art. So your friends opinion is exactly that; An opinion.Also, all the training in the world is not going to drive YOUR style out of you. It's just like writing, my style was my style, no matter how many classes I took. At 18 you still have lots of time! Your body is probably done growing, so you wont have those clumsy growth spurts, and your hand will grow more steady with time and practice. College is coming up, join some art classes, gain some experience, and remember that just drawing well isn't all there is to it. Gain the knowledge of how the business world works, and learn how to promote yourself.Mostly though, remember the taste thing...Your work, may fit into a category that MORE people like than you know!!It's not a dead dream unless you let it be.
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I completely agree with Pepsi on this. The dream is dead only if you let it die.There are all different kinds of art each with their own admirers. Some that are a demonstration of technique, some are conveying political messages, some that convey radical ideas, some as a means of commerce. Make your art an expression of your own feelings while you continue to develop your technique and in that you may find your own style or you will have developed your skill to a point to follow another. One thing to remember is that often critics judge you by their inadequacies, rather than by your talents.Whatever, I wouldn't give up just yet I think art is to noble a purist to abandon lightly.
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but.... when are u too old to develop good skills? I feel like the dancer who likes dancing but is too old to ever be able to become professional....I dont know if its true... i think it is.. Im also really unmotivated,.... I've been so for a long time because of other depressions and stuff.
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Your too old, when your dead.Anyway, you should get some help with the other stuff your dealing with. Depression can cause a dark outlook on everything.
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I personally don't think your ever to old. My uncle became a good painter when he was in his 70's. For myself I always thought skill was second to the idea I was trying to convey.As for being depressed can you express that depression through your art. You may find it quite cathartic. Not only that it may lead you to finding your own voice. Whatever you do, if it's painting let say, then paint for yourself. Do it because you like and fuck everyone else.If you're never able to develop the skill it takes to draw life like portraits then draw portraits like whats-his-name, from Spain. You know he did the bull fighter and the three titted woman. He developed his own style and from what I've read it's a style that fit his skill. You get the idea.
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Thing is that I have tried to make my own style... i've... like tried everything, but they still come out boring and bland... It's like my style IS bland... like the rest of me... I think I need to talk to a therapist or something
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Well then, rather than trying to develop your own style right now have you tried expressing what you are feeling through your art. Why not let the end product be whatever it is (in other words give no thought or worry) and focus on the self expression of the process.By all means if you think you need to talk to someone do it. Depression can be a mean bitch and often relatively easily remedied.
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Well i've tried just.. drawing... I often have the image i wanna draw in my head already.... but when it comes to putting in on paper... it's like this fog kicks in and... im just.. drawing but there's not really a feeling to it... It happens so often. I wish I could find a way to convert my feelings into creativity but I cant. I think it hs to do with me going to technical highschool too.. :(.... Its just .. so technical. Also... Doany of you have good information about learning processes? and scientific articles on talents.... or methods to like start thinking artistically than technical. Cos I think that a problem too... I try to make it too perfect or sumthing... i dont know... I just need help o.o...