I'm so close.

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Everything feels like it's getting worse.My 'friend' I told you about in an earlier post? yeah. well i found out she's been stabbing me in the back.mom and me are getting somewhat better though. i just. i dunno.and i still feel really deep in depression. sometimes for no reason. and I feel really terrible, like no one i know personally, is really there for me. except my two friends, who i don't even get to see but once a month. (different schools}

I didn't really have any friends at all through high school or middle school because I didn't talk to anyone. It wasn't that I chose not to, but I just wasn't able to because of anxiety issues, which were never openly discussed or treated. Instead of relying on others to be there for me, I endured it alone and in silence.Sometimes there is no one around to help you or understand what you are going through, but that doesn't mean you can't do anything about it. Sure friends and family are nice to have, but it is my opinion that the only thing that can truly make you happy is yourself.Sometimes when things are hard for me to handle, I sit down somewhere outside that's really nice, and I gather myself, close my eyes and just breathe. You might be surprised at how good it actually feels. Maybe you should give it a try and see what it does for you.

I'll try.