Fearfulnessness...ness

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Something bad happened to me today on my way home from school but thank God it wasn't too bad and this lady saw me crying and called the cops and yeah... but now I'm afraid to go out by myself or leave the house and I keep having the feeling that it's gonna happen again only worse. I don't want to let this fear seduce me and take control of me so is there anyway I can get over this? I do too many things by myself and have have too many things to do to let this interfere in my life now.

something scares me I attack it.I was afraid of high places so I started climbing, I was afraid of snakes so I bought a small boa and kept it inmy room next to my bed for a few years till it reached 6 feet.if Julie wouldnt of moved inwith me Id still have that snake, she made it go before she would live there.not knowing whats wrong and what led to it I dont kno w what to tell you to do???

but I'm too small!! lol no really like... I need to get back into my self defense classes I hate being so dang small... why God why? and then my stupid bookbag. but whatever. what if you can't scream because you're too frightened and you can't necessarily fight?

Im small, I jsut know how to hurt people very badly so that they cant continue fighting. Most my fights come with more than a single persona and people that have 100 lbs on me. Break thier fucking bones, punch them in the throat, that adams apple makes a hell of a target and if you cant breath....you cant fight. ribs break with a short upward and inward thrust pretty damned easy.knees break or atleast seperate easy with a heel to the knee cap slightly sideways. Noses break easy witha upward thrust of the heel of your hand, jaws snap witha good crisp cross about an inch behind the chin, smashing fists into both ears tends to disoprient and fuck someone up real bad. shoulders brek with a bit of upward force on the elbow with it behind the back, a good stomp to the shoulder with break the clavicals, upward behind the back on the wrist breaks the elbow, tears the shit out of it even.a good headbutt to the nose with the flat of your forehead is a good one noone ever sees coming. if your going to get hit anyways drop your head and let them punch your forehead, its the thickest part of your skull, you can break a hand punching someone there. It hurts, but nto as bad as if the punch hit where htey wanted it to or if you tried to dodge and got it on teh chin instead of jsut taking it and getting smoe return for the pain. stomp on the top of the foot, do ti with a heel and you can break the metatarsils, a thumb forced into an eye can make the fucker pop.if you get a hand ful of hair force the head down while you bring the knee up into the eye or nose, let go and throw a solid cross and stomp on thier head when they hit the ground.Fighting has nothing to do with size and everything to do with being a mean mother fucker adn knowing how to hurt someone, kidney shots after your cure you are going to win are good since they will be pissing blood for a week adn remember why they are, but its not good to finisha fight with one. Throww a hook and follow it through with the elbow, stomp on the top of the foot then bring the knee into the solar plexis.size means jack shit in the ability to fight, what matters is proper form and knowing how to get the most damage for a shot.

yeah me too...

chance it's kinda hard breaking someone's bones! lol I mean it would be easier for a guy if it's a guy because he has more testosterone and the agility/ability whatever to do that. But if it's like guy on girl then it's not that much of a chance you know? I guess it would all depend on the position right? like if it's from behind you could smack them in the face with the back of your head lol or kick backwards in the jewelry department lol

actually im pretty sure all that he said has more to do with positioning and points at where you hit than strength

I know but I don't want to hurt myself in the process! lol I know I'm being picky. but some of those movements are hard when you have a huge ton bookbag blocking your way... kind of a blur actually. nmthanks chance I'll remember that next time it happens. hopefully it won't but I will remember.

well if your lifes in danger your bookbag should be the least of your worries, as in on the ground

yeah but if it's on you when it happens you can't really get it off is what I'm trying to get at.

ooo ok,and i take it you couldnt hit them with it either?

by the time I was done getting it off me lol they would have done something else I'm sure

well you could hit them than take it off or something but ok

Okay, in lieu of taking self defense classes (which I HIGHLY recommend, as it's just good physical fun)Take a look at these two interim options:1) The SAS self defense handbook (Amazon) By John Wiseman. I've read this book more than once, it is a simple, interesting, and useful read with plenty of explanations2) Kubaton - this is a small metal rod (less than 5"....all jokes aside) sometimes with a blunted point, sometimes flat. The SAS book will talk about using the Kubaton on pressure points; from experience...it hurts like a bitch to get hit with one, it fits on your key chain, and is VERY easy to use.

Quote:I mean it would be easier for a guy if it's a guy because he has more testosterone and the agility/ability whatever to do that.Hmmm. When you say this, it reminds me of 3 girls I've dated. One was a black belt in karate, another was very good in Taekwondo, and the last a kickboxer / ring girl (the one who got away, damn). Testosterone, agility, and ability doesn't have much to do with it.My personal recommendation is to take self defense classes, maybe get into some martial arts, and carry some mace or pepper spray with you.

No mace or pepper spray.Atleast in Utah its illegal to have under the age of 18.I will say however, Id rather be charged for having it underage than being mugged, beaten, raped, etc...Get rid of the book bag, get a backpack with a handle and wheels. A heavy as bag is bad for yuor back anyways. Carry the one yuo have now on one shoulder so you can drop it easy, use it as a weapon.

'round here, the popo love usin' they mace n' peppa spray on them rowdy youngins. I've seen some BIG guys taken down with a little bit of pepper spray in the face. I agree when you said, "Id rather be charged for having it underage than being mugged, beaten, raped, etc...". I don't carry either with me, but I also know how to defend myself.

Pepper spray is a bitch to have used on you.Iv been peppered by the police, its ntoa good experience. They also make one that stains your skin so that it shows undera black light to help in identifying a suspect.I have a big can of pepper spray but I dont carry it, its in my backpack and gets strapped to my waist when I go out in bear country. Its been shown to be very effective against the large predators. Of course I carry a .357 magnum so I dont need pepper spray. Id feel much worse killing a bear that was being a bear then I would to splatter some bastard that had intent to do me harm. yesterday I forgot to mention that the ability to fight also revolves around speed, speed, knowing where and how to hit and being plain fucking mean are what makes a great fighter, not size.

Quote:yesterday I forgot to mention that the ability to fight also revolves around speed, speed, knowing where and how to hit and being plain fucking mean are what makes a great fighter, not size.This is VERY true. It seems that most of the time it's the big guys who think they are all big and bad that have a sense of false confidence when a lot of them haven't even been in a real fight.Pepper spray is no joke. The only incident where I heard pepper spray didn't take someone down was when they guy was tripping on meth.

easier said than done!! you guys really need to try living in my city for a day to understand what I mean. but thanks anyway.

oh and I'm not a blackbelt lol I'm a dancer I don't do that whole...fighting ordeal. but I do need to remember and practice some self-defense moves I agree.

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