I dont actually have any questions, just something I need to say. Depression runs in my family. Most people cope with it by drinking in excess. I myself have been fighting with it for a long time but have never told anyone about it. My cousin actually hanged himself last year and I always think that if he had not done that, it would have been me. But I cant bring myself to do it now because I think it would be selfish. Not sure why I think that. I have noticed that my depression usually revolves around my relationships, or lack there of. Whenver I go a long time without any kind of affection from the opposite sex, it hits me hard. I know thats a terrible reason to feel the way I do because there are many people out there much worse off than myself. I have never been in a relationship in which the woman lives close to myself. Ive had many sexual conquests but I have only had 2 girlfriends. One when I was in college and she lived more than an hour away. The other was from my soccer career in Brazil, and when I had to leave I had to leave her aswell. I ended up going back but only for a month and half. So that relationship was doomed from the beginning. And when I go out I dont ever look to pick up because I have an incredibly low self esteem and I never actually think I can pick up. I really and truly hate my life. Which is a terrible thing to say because I actually have a great life according to some people. I have traveled to mant different places, Ireland, Scotland, Australia, Malaysia, most of the continental US and I played pro soccer in Brazil. Ive also got tons of friends and people generally like me. But I sitll am ridiculously depressed and I cant help it. Anyways. Like i said Im not posing any questions. This is just a rant I needed to get off my chest. I have never told anyone of my issues and prolly wont tell anyone. I dont really expect anyone to actually read this either. Sorry for any misspelled words I may have out in here. And Im sure Ive left out words aswell. Its 5am here right now and I seem to be suffering from insomnia. Oh well.
If your old enough, you can visit a dr, or a counselor, and no one needs to know. It might help you if you really want help. (I know you said it was just a rant).
There are a million reasons to be depressed, and none of them are "more appropriate" than the others. I would seek some professional help, and possibly meds?
Depression as you know, makes life harder. Yet, there is comfort in hiding in a warm fuzzy blankie for a few days. Try to get some help so you can enjoy your accomplishments!!!
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." -- Theodor Seuss Geisel <br /><br />
um, who are you, again?