I don't know what to do anymore. Ok first let me start off with a story that's not the case of it because the problem was before it, but certainly doesn't help.
Ok First, I had sex with my new girlfriend, I made sure it was protected, and hell for extra protection I made sure I didn't ejaculate in her. But then my ex who I still really care about got really really hurt because I said sex with my girlfriend.
Going on about how she loved me and thought I was the 1 person who truly understood her. But for the past 7 months I begged her to come back practically she refused, every time she broke up with this guy she won't seem to get rid of she starts talking about how much she likes 4 other guys. And when she's with this guy she won't seem to get rid of completely she treats me like shit stops talking to me stops listening acts like a real bitch.
But now I feel bad because I hurt her really really badly. And I don't know what to do about that.
Now on to my other problem. I can't seem to find happiness at all and I don't understand why, I have everything anyone my age could ask for.
I have my own room, hell I have my own house. I have my own top of the line computer, I have a Car and a Truck for when I turn 16, I have game consols and plenty of games, I have a girlfriend that cares about me and that I can have sex with whenever(When she's with me anyway) and I don't have to worry about having sex with allot or she'll leave because I'm not satisfieing her enough. I live with both my parents who are still together. I have friends, I have social groups. I have homeschool that I can do as much as I want to when I want to. But still I'm not happy like at all.
And truth be told, while I do care allot about my girlfriend, I love my ex. Is it really possible that I'm unhappy all the time because I can't be with her? I mean after all this stuff I have, is she really the source that would make me happy. Because I use to be really happy all the time when I was with her and I almost killed myself when she left.
I just I don't know, I could understand not having the girl I love with me bum me out deep down inside, but I'm completely unhappy. in like every way. the only times I was actually happy was when I was with my new gf, and even then deep down inside I was still depressed, but now that she's not around atm, I'm completely in every way unhappy. and I have NO reason to be.