okay heres the rundown, i had my first kiss last summer- age 15. bit of an embarassing age but i bloomed/matured late and the experience was so amazing that i wouldnt trade it for the world. anyways, ive known the girl for about a year now give or take a month, we have become close since- we liked eachother mutually for ages, i never made a move, her friends said i liked someone else so she moved on and got together with this older guy, thats been going on for almost a year, they broke up a few days ago because he messed with her head a lot, he cheated on her a lot and she made out with another boy [not me]...now heres where it gets complicated. last friday, i get drunk, tell her im in love with her...she cries, and apparently shes always loved me, but still loves her ex, and likes this other guy...im making her seem horrible, right? she really isnt. i know im only 15, maybe i dont know what love is, but when i think about her it just makes sense, you know? i told her to think about it as much as she needed to, because i didnt want her making a snap decision and changing her mind later- she said would we still be friends if she went for someone else? i said yes of course. i cant help but feel like im being pathetic, like a safety net, but shes too good natured to use me like that- it really isnt how it seems but its still so complicated. any advice, anyone?-max
