I honestly don't know what the fuck is up right now. I'm a really light sleeper so before I go to sleep i go on the computer or walk around my house or even look out the window... which is where my problem comes in. Because I look at my old friends house and than start thinking about the days when we were younger and the only friends we had were the kids on the street and I feel like crying. I also feel its MY fault were not friends. We went COMPLETELY opposite ways. As he got older he got more social, had a huge group of friends, couple girlfriends, etc. But i've gotten LESS social, have like 4 Friends. I talk to ONE outside of school. I have yet to have a girlfriend. But I have no Idea Why i miss being friends with him. even before we were opposite of each other. He was a badass, I was the one who prefered to what wouldn't get us in trouble.
Wasting My Time...
Comparing ourselves with others like that isn't usually helpful. We are each unique, and have our own ways to make through the world.
But why not arrange to do something together. You may re-start the friendship, to the good of both of you, or you may end up wondering why you were ever friends in the first place - either would move you forwards from feeling depressed and wondering what if.
I would talk to him. Problem is... He's friends with a lot of people i've had problems with in the past.