thats it i have had enough! i dont want to have this going on anymore, i dont want to live! i dont see my life going anywhere, i dont see myself in the future.. i have been struggling with this stupid waste of a fucking stupid exsistance that i call my life!
i have NO ONE in the world that i can talk to, my life is one big cover-up, i try and pretend that i am someone else where my family is normal and my mother doesnt shout at me and call me a C**T and keep telling mee that i am going to be like my father oneday and throw chairs around and plates and SLAMMING the door all the time!!!
I hate being told i am useless and that i am a loser and that i have no friends!
why is it that everytime something reasonably bad happens the the rest of us have to suffer because of it!!
SHE SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME, everytime she enters a room a great shiver runs up the back of my spine and everytime a door slams i think its her!
i dont want to live ANYMORE - no one will help me, i dont tell my friends because they will all think i am a lier because mum is SO NICE the everyone ELSE!!!
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEE!