Okay, so i just recently registered this account and have frequented these boards for quite awhile and I just think that this site is absolutely awesome... but I'm at a crossroads in my life right now and I'm hoping to get some serious input on something that has been consuming my mind and making me nervous for awhile now... so here goes (and thank you so much if your reading this)... So about a year and a half ago I had surgery to repair a varicocele on my left testicle and it's since the surgery i really havent been able to tell much of a difference in appearance (vericocele is basically where one testicle has a dialated blood vessel and makes the teste look unattractive, saggy bag-of-worms type syndrome when penis is flacid, but hardly noticable when erect).. anyhow, I've been fine with this and I'm perfectly satisfied with my penis in and of itself, but something happened a few months ago... i've met a girl who I absolutely love more than anything and we're moving in together this summer and going to school together in the fall (i feel so blessed)... I'm perfectly comfortable with all factors in the situation and with the direction my life is going right now, it's just this varicocele is giving me some major anxiety.. I want to be able to do everything with my girl, including sharing a bathroom and showering or whatever happens to be our forte at the moment, but my left testicle is just (for lack of better word) terrible looking and it just makes me uncomfortable... not to mention I sometimes get a dull aching pain in it, especially if I do situps or anything involving core excercising... this also affects my willingness to shower in a lockerroom and other things that involve other people seeing me naked... it has nothing to do with my penis size, just my left testicles appearance... it's stopped me so far from pursuing college football and that alone has been painful since it's something I'm very passionate about.. Anyhow, I know my girlfriend loves me and she'd still love me no matter what issues I had including this one in particular... but long story short, I've been thinking about it for a long time and i'm thinking about getting a prosthetic testicle replacement... I know my sperm production would be limited drastically, but my mental health would be sky high and I wouldn't be hesitant to pursue all the things in life that I want to do if I could have this done... I just wanted to hear what anybody felt about this, or if anyone has been through a similar situation, because I am just at a crossroads rite now and want to be happy with myself (physically)... Ofcourse I'll consult a doctor, but I just was hoping to get some feedback on this it's something I just keep to myself for the mostpart... Anyways, thank you so much for reading this and god bless!!p.s. I'm 21 years old
A huge decision...
Welcome to A2A, Hawktalk. Is it possible that this is something that only appears abnormal only to you and would not be even noticed by anyone else? I doubt that this girl, or anyone else, would be concened by your "difference." If she turns out to be "the one", she most likely would (eventually) want you to have as full a sperm production as possible. Removal of a testical and replacement with a prosthetic is a no-going-back decision. Is cosmetics really that important?
Ask yourself this question. If, when you got her naked you found that her breasts (either or both) had been enhanced by her bra and were not what they appeared to be. Would you live her any less?
I also have a varicocele theat I never treated. IDK, for me, the left side of the scrotum is fuller and droopyier becasue of the weight of the dilated veins, but it's nothing that severe that would cause aversion or shock if someone were to see it. I think the size and appearance are more dramatic in your eyes than they would be for someone else.Have you gone back to the doctor to reevaluate the current condition?