Well, my best friends Dad is a vicar, so they move around alot, she came to the town I live in 4 years ago, and after two years she told me she'd never move again and her parents liked it here, then, November 8 2006, she told me, she was moving to New Zealand, she said she was going at christmas, we all got prepared but she didn't leave, then the same happened at easter, but at easter she actually left school, it was so sad, so then after easter half term I came back for one day, then I had the flu and spent two days off school, and everyone thought I was skipping school because of depression.I thought I was dealing with it fine, but I just keep bottling it all up, I think about her all the time, it's so sad.She left on Tuesday, she said she'd have the internet quickly, and she'd email me, but I'm getting scared that she's lost my email, I know it's only been about 4 days, but I miss her so much, I don't talk about her much anymore.One of my friends has noticed, since she left I don't talk much anymore, I just sit there with the sadness in my eyes, he can tell I'm depressed, he says I used to be so full and interesting, but now all I do is sit there, he's one of the only people I talk to anymore, and since my friend left I'm even more anti - social, I just don't know what to do, I want her home so badly, and I know that won't happen, but I can't carry on just sitting there, quietly.There's this kid of school who's depressing me even more, he likes me, everyone knows, so he keeps telling stories he thinks are really hileriously funny, and I just carry on with whatever I'm doing, and occasionally say hmm yeah or something, just to look like I care, and the kid who's realised I'm depressed say's leave her alone, she can see she's bored and depressed, stop depressing her further.But all my emotions are bottled, so bottled I can't let them out, I can't cry about it, I don't talk about it, could someone help?
A little depressed
Losing a friend is like a death, and you need to grieve. Grieving can include all sorts of emotions - as well as feeling sad, you can feel numb, or angry, or disconnected, or all sorts of other emotions or mixtures of emotions. It's all part of grieving.Talking about it helps. Talk to anyone. Talk to the kid who likes you - he needs to know how you feel.