People don't understand me...
Mmm Naming it doesn't always help, and he didn't develop the Paranoid Schizophrenia until later on, in his twenties.
Before he developed it, he learned he couldn't expect someone to care, understand, or give a damn about him if he didn't do the same. He still couldn't do it, though.
Do you mind if I ask if your parents were caring, or if one or the other was the same as you?
Mmm Naming it doesn't always helpIt would be a start (for me), though. I keep thinking there's got to be something wrong with me, since there's no way this could just be normal. Then I realize that maybe there's nothing wrong with me, and it just sux that much.> He still couldn't do it, though.Difference between me and him is that he wanted to do it.> Do you mind if I ask if your parents were caring, or if one or the other was the same as you?When I said no one cared, I meant no one (except Pete, but he knows that...) and neither was like me.
I meant like you in the sense that they were dis sensitized, There... is nothing "wrong" with you in the traditional sense, in the same way that there is nothing wrong with the man or woman that gives everything they own to charity. One extreme is just more humanitarily useful then the other. "and it just sux that much."What do you mean by that?
There... is nothing "wrong" with you in the traditional senseMy point was that when I ask myself why things are the way they are, sometimes I wish there were an easy answer such as "I have _____ disorder" .... but then I realize there's no easy answer> What do you mean by that?I mean everything (except my job at times) always sucks. Going with what I said above... when I realize there is no easy answer, I realize that everything in my life just sucks so much and that there's no "name" I can give it - it just sux
You can give it a name,
Hey, I have a Bachelors in Genetic Sciences, I give you "Desensitized dissociative disorder"
All those silly names like ADD/ADHD, and Restless Leg syndrome (that one still makes me laugh), are all just there so people can... say "This is why I act the way I do" With out the name, or the idiotic medication, they would still act the way they do. Are most modern diseases completely fake? Yea, probably (I probably shouldn't say that given my chosen profession, but I hate the pharmaceuticals industry). Anyway, what I was saying before I went off on a tangent is, you are how you are not because some silly scientist with a degree, or a drug company pushing a new product says so, but because of a chemical imbalance, hormonal imbalance, genetic twitch, or many other things that are completely out of your control.
I asked about your parents to see if some kind of trait got passed onto you, that can happen (I love behaivoral gene study, anyway...) and, Easy answers, although often give comfort, just mask the real issue.
What's your job? And why does that sometime not suck?
"Desensitized dissociative disorder"I googled it and only found DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder)> What's your job? And why does that sometime not suck?I make sandwiches at Subway. And it used to be all good, until my manager randomly decided to take his stress out on me. Ever since then, it's not been that great.But on the other hand, he said he'd be gone for 2months during the summer, so it should get better then...
I googled it and only found DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder)Lol, that's cause I was joking, although, I'm not surprised that there is something called that. Anyway, I am off for a while, I have a conference call in a little while and I have to not look like I just crawled out of bed. See you, I hope we accomplished something for you tonight instead of giving you more questions.(and see, I'm not always a jerk)
Anyway, I am off for a whileThat's weird, because this was going to be my last post as well. It's 4:30am and I got work in a few hours, so I'm off..> I hope we accomplished something for you tonight instead of giving you more questionsI'll probably think about everything that was said in bed in a minute, so we'll see...> (and see, I'm not always a jerk)And see, I'M not always a jerk...
You arent different .Youre negative.Suck it up sunshine
Well, thx for talking with me Java.Unfortunately, I'm done causing trouble for everyone, so I'll just stop posting. I'll still read though (unless even THAT would somehow piss people off)Bye.
I'm not exactly with the flow either, but if people think your an ass and insensitive, maybe it's because your forcing your views on others? Make sure that you keep to yoru views but be considerate of other's views.
Bye.
Maybe I shouldn't butt in here, but, I have a little one (10) who is very narcissistic. (that is a google-able one). I have read alot about Antisocial Personality disorders, and I am by no means a therapist.What I have learned, is, she had it VERY rough at home for about the first 6 or 7 years. I was very ill, and to a kid, mom is just not there, they don't understand why, but we as parents, are "god like" to a child. Kids believe that they are the center of the universe, and parents are only there to take care of them. It is healthy for kids to feel that way. When they don't get the care that is needed, they can develop emotional issues.On top of me not being as available as I should have been (I cant remember the first maybe 2 years of her life, so I don't know HOW available I was, but with my Graves Desease, I know I slept ALOT), my daughter had an abusive father. He is a convicted child molester, was verbally more so than physically violent, but physical violence DID rear it's ugly head over the years.When I finally got MY act together and got rid of her father, his other daughter finally said something about the sexual abuse. At that point he destroyed our home (mostly the kids stuff) with a match and gasoline...That was 4 years ago next month. And she hasn't seen her father in 4 years as of last month.My daughters and I got on with it, went through our/my own other set of problems. My little one, got very attached to someone who committed suicide...that has been a year and a half ago. She still packs the stuffed dog with her that "he" gave her. She is living in the "what if he would have lived" world.Though, since I got well, I have been constant support, love, and discipline for her, she lives in a world of negativity. The way she sees the world:Why care? I open up my heart, and it gets hurt.Why get attached, things/people just get taken away.No one understands me (screamed at the top of her lungs usually).Someone else ALWAYS did it to her. The kid at school hit her, but she doesn't understand that he did it because she tripped him, or stole from them...The teacher doesn't like her because she makes her sit still in class. The bus driver doesn't like her, because she separates my daughter from other children whom she fights with. My daughter doesn't understand that the other child was reprimanded too.For her, she is only 10, her ways aren't set in. A diagnosis, and a game plan, may keep her from having a miserable life. MAYBE I can teach her how to see the good, and the balances that DO happen in this world that she misses.Maybe it's the case for you too....I don't know, that you see the world the way she does. Maybe somewhat, but, I wonder about your history. That in ways like her, you just learned that there are such painful things in this world,at such a young age, that this is how you cope by not having any feelings. It is impossible to shut off one emotion without shutting off others...Wanna talk, look me up. I don't get time on msn hardly anymore, but, I do pm, and email. Just takes a bit longer. *sorry everyone for the re-run spiel.
Thank you so much for that post.
That does sound a lot like me. Except that I'm 18 and have to deal with a lot more shit, but other than that it's similarDon't know what you were trying to tell me (or maybe I missed the point), but yeah..
I didn't know your age. Yes, at 18 there is alot of responsibility that a child doesn't have.What part resonates with you? The history, or the behavior?
Bro you sound a lil Narcisistic, have you gotten any proffessional help? Creepies like us can only do so much over the internet.
Originally Posted By: ashley69Bye.Hmm...and he's the cold one?? chillax, it was just a question.
lol!! yup im the cold one. im a bitch.
Well a bitch is a female dog and dogs bark. Bark is part of a tree which is part nature, and nature is beautiful. So you're beautiful!
