Hi guys ive only been on this community for a short time but already im soo thankful that everyone has always helped me with my problems
Well i got over all my drug problems an sexuall problems but now i realized it was pale in comparisson to the internal an mental problems i have...
An its causing me to feel horrible inside, growing up i never met my dad, my mom had sex with some guy on vacation an had me, when i was 3 my mom got married an her new husband didnt like me soo he made my mom get rid of me an i was adopted. My adopted family are ok to me they take care of me but they never showed me the love that my mom did. When i was 8 i was molested, an made to do sexual things for my cousin. I never told anyone an im 18, an no one would believe me cause we are both guys an he is married now.
Growing up i've always felt like i wasnt good enough for anyone cause the fact that my mom abondoned me made me feel worthless..growing up i was the nerdy kid that was in band an i didnt have a girlfriend or partying till i was about 16. Now im older an i still feel like shit..i have an amazing girlfriend who i love an she loves me very much but i cant seam to understand why anyone would love me...i hate myself soo much lately idk what to do, she treats me amazing an loves me but i dont bealive it an im become materialistic an changing, i think that money can buy me things an make me have a worth in my life..im turning into the rich lazy kids that fuck up their lives that isnt worth shit..and she says im changing from the man that she fell in love with to the ones that i hate..