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Sadly neither her nor I are sane.

She had agoraphobia. I have probably have codependency and probably paranoia I don't really trust anyone unless you get really close..

and then well you see what happens when people get close =/.

Dude, what do you mean no one likes you? You know that's not true.

I like you as well, and you know that.

I wish I had half the balls nessicery to even talk about that kind of stuff much less go threw it.

WOW!I am SO completely proud of you right now Caleb!!!That was huge!!But maybe, just maybe, it will help others put their stuff into perspective. (I know it put mine into perspective when you first started telling me your story).HUGS

Quote: then FUCKING Katrina came along. yea.... Quote: Dude, what do you mean no one likes you? You know that's not true. I don’t like myself so how can others… besides I know wut people think of people that fuck around with their sister. I read it and hear it. I heard all the rumors that were being said about wut happened at school. I heard all the rumors going around that was being said why we moved away. we didn’t move cuz of wut happened at school. We moved cuz my dad went to live with his brother after mom kicked him out and when he came back he had found some land that we could expand the breeding and training facilities. So we moved.. more land ..bigger house and now (yes stupid Katrina) were living in a smaller house and less land than wut we had b4 we moved to the coast. those rumors were so off…….. I figure there are probly rumors going around about me on here…people that like me have hidden agendas. well not all I just can’t tell who’s playing me and who’s not. this shit with Shannon better be real………… but back there in my head I dk.. there’s a lot of reasons to why she would want to stick with me. I just know she can do better.

S.S., you know (and I know) what he's talking about. True or not, it's what we deal with...you know how it is.You're right, I know exactly what he's talking about. And me saying it isn't going to help him any, but it might, so that's why I said it.> besides I know wut people think of people that fuck around with their sisterPeople might say something to people who fuck aroudn with their sister... on purpose. Big difference.Don't worry about what other people say and all those rumors, who gives a shit about them? do you?Who gives a shit about stupid rumors about you?There's no telling what kind of weird shit people say about me all the tiem... but I don't care, because ... I dunno, I just don't care what some random guy thinks about me.

People might say something to people who fuck around with their sister... on purpose. Big difference.But I did…. And I didn’t. but there were times I did so I am guilty. Don't worry about what other people say and all those rumors, who gives a shit about them? do you? I dk.. I know I shouldn’t care. Who gives a shit about stupid rumors about you? I dk

But I did…. And I didn’t. but there were times I did so I am guilty. Well I don'tr eally know what happened nor do I wish to find out in great detail, but it soudns to me like it was more NOT your fault than it is.> I dk.. I know I shouldn’t care. I used to care what other people thought about me. It took me a very long time to finally realize WHY people say stuff about you and that you it doesn't matter what they say. USually when people say bad things about other people, they are trying to either soudn cool or cover up their own insecurities. Once you realize that it's very easy to not care what they say about you (when they do, just think: How bad must they have it to say that about me?)

If anyone judges you well to hell with them.Look man.. In my last year of highschool we were discussing something I made a joke.. "well there are ways to take care of that kind of person"They didn't get the joke so they asked 'how' I go "decapitation".. then I had to explain decapitation means cutting someones head off.After that for the rest of the year they tried to egg me on and get me to say I was going to do something so they could report me and get me arrested or worse.They literally told my girlfriend I was on drugs.. (behind my back naturally). They said I worshipped satan. Said I did alllootttt of stuff I didn't do =/.Just gotta learn to ignore em.

Meh. I dress normally. Wear "normal" clothes. Don't dress overly gothic or anything.However, most people do seem to feel I am way different. Some feel I'm smarter then normal others think I'm an idiot. SOme believe I worship satan. Most people find me in some way "off". Can't say it bothers me. You get use to it pretty fast...

Lol. I use to be more fit then I am now (that makes me sound like i'm 90 XD).Yeah. I have very diverse interest myself. I use to work out on a daily basis and still obsess over computers and video games.Most people exaggerated everything I said. Or said I said something when I didn't. I sometimes still get a kick out of the questions I've been asked.

Dude i’ve seen u.. u scare me (jk) ur a big dude.I work out daily so i can kick my older brother's ass! lol

This is the 2nd time I've seen you leave out the word "not". Do you not like it?

u know if people saw some of the shit in my head or wut i draw they wouldn't think i was so sweet and nice anymore.

decapitation is pretty mild comparied to wut i think of doing to some peopel somtimes....... If they found were i hide my nute skech pads they;s throw my as sin a nut house. ( i probly need to be there tho)

> u know if people saw some of the shit in my head or wut i draw they wouldn't think i was so sweet and nice anymore.

If you guys saw some of the shit that went on in my head... I can't even describe what the fuck would happen

But really, I think the same could be said about every single person in the world, but to different degrees (I doubt everyone thinks some of the shit I do, for example).

Definetely

I concur. There are things we all really would just not rather know about eachother.Granted we do have a certain habit of making it out to be worse in our heads then it really is.

Quote:we do have a certain habit of making it out to be worse in our heads then it really is. i know it’s half my problem. it's like with the rumors i mean like the ones i think are beings said.. not that i know were said. and like when i see a group of people talking and i don’t think much of it but if one looks at me i automatically think there making a plan to get me and i leave ASAP.... Like I have this thing in my head that I think people are checking out my dick bulge and I just want to tape the fucking thing down.

I have the same problem..Then again.. There really have been times I think in my life where i thought people were talking about me... and they actually were and it happened enough so that now its just an automatic resposne"somethings wrong with me!"

Screw those people, I'm telling you...I swear, High School has become one of the worst things for kids these days.