The more and more the weeks go by, I can feel the sexual frustration buildup in me. I don't know where to start. Me and my girlfriend have been together for a year now. We are both 19. We have a GREAT RELATIONSHIP, a type that people mainly wish they have.
It kind of shocks me of how it still is going strong. I am left with question marks all over. We never had a big fight yet, we don't even argue. Every time we get together, it still fills like we are 3 months in. Ex.) tickling, laughing,cuddling, etc.
I guess it's just the way we both are, but sometimes I feel it's more the way SHE is. She has never had a boyfriend before me. (She always tells me how the song "Miss Independent" was her theme song.) She seems childish in the mind area of mature statures, and doesn't swear. She has an over protected family, mainly brothers.
She is a GOOD GIRL. The "goodest" it can get, if "goodest" is a word. She can past as nun like, and I love her to death.
Her female friends are starting to experience their hormones in becoming women, and she lets them have it. When she has these conversations with me, and the way she reacts to these things, she makes me feel like I'm 10 all over again....not good.
I am to that point in the relationship where I want to be intimate in one another. We NEVER, not even once talked about anything sexual and the way we feel about one another like that, IF there is anything. I want to start a next step, but am afraid I can't express it due to the immaturity levels in her.
I am seriously stumped. I do a lot with her, I go to family gatherings, buy her cute gifts, and do whatever I can to make her feel loved. But it's missing.
How do I even start to talk conversation about this with her (and it WILL be awkward) without her thinking "wow, just a TYPICAL GUY!" And she expresses this time and time again, leaving me to remain mum. I think there is a HUGE difference of getting some VS being in love. (I have never done anything with a girl just because I wanted it to be right)and sometimes I regret that. Do I toss away my pride? Or just remain in this laughable sexual relationship state, that we don't have and obey her needs, rather than my own? Am I doing something wrong? Not being assertive enough?
I get angered just in MOVIES when a sex scene occurs where people are actually INTO each other.
This is beginning to wear and tear on my mind, what do I do?