Is there an end?

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Is there ever an end to depression?I really wanna know what it feels like to not be depressed for more than a month, I really do.I'm fucking 18, and can't say I've ever been able to be happy for that long before I get real depressed again because of completely random shit, just because.So, to anyone who knows... is there ever an end to this? I'm not so sure anymore...

Good question.I personally don't believe that depression can ever end. But I do believe one can be happy for a while until shit happens and you're in an emotional state for a while. I've come to terms with that and believe that's just how life is. You gotta take in the bad with the good and learn.I've been depressed since 16 and I'm not that much older than you (21). Right now in my life, I have no complains and I'm living a pretty good life. But there are times, I'll have moments where I'm so hard on myself that I feel like I should give up trying to build a future for myself.My boyfriend also suffers, even more so than I. He's been on medication since he was a teenager. And, even though he takes anti-depressants twice a day, there are times when he will say the most hurtful things about himself and becomes really emotional.But most of the time, we are happy because we are lucky. We're lucky that we have each other and that's what keeps us happy most of the time. And we do hit a bump, we are there for each other for support, which helps tremendously.I know I'm better off than some people but that's what I know.

Don't forget that one of the effects of depression is that it makes you feel it will never end, even though logically you know it has in the past and so logically you expect it will again.

> I've come to terms with that and believe that's just how life is

If that were true, every single person in the world would be depressed. Obviously that's not true, so it must be something else.

> I've been depressed since 16 and I'm not that much older than you (21).

But the point I was trying to make is... I've been depressed my entire life. At least you were not depressed for 15 years, I want to know what that feels like.

> we are there for each other for support, which helps tremendously.

I'm glad you have someone that can help with support. Not everyone does.

> Don't forget that one of the effects of depression is that it makes you feel it will never end

I know that's one of the effects of depression. I'm just wondering in general if this will ever end, or if I have to feel like shit for the rest of my life, however long that may be.

> and the stories you make up about your life

What does that mean?

> but if you begin to se things n a positive light.....it just might begin to help.

That's great advice... for someone who's never dealt with depression before. Unfortunately, I have, and I've had plenty of times where I exactly that and after so much wrong shit happening, and me constantly trying to look at it in a positive light, I just realized I'm just constantly lying to myself everytime something bad happens.

Originally Posted By: StillSearchingIf that were true, every single person in the world would be depressed. Obviously that's not true, so it must be something else.I meant that's how my life is, not everyone in the world. But that's just my belief.  Originally Posted By: StillSearchingI'm glad you have someone that can help with support. Not everyone does.And that's why I said I'm lucky. I know not everyone is as fortunate as me.

well to be honest there is but i personally cant keep my mind off of depression. This probably sounds sad/stupid but i find my life boring without depression and just cant stop thinking about it and i do miss it when im not so im a sense a part of you doesn't completley get over it.

> And that's why I said I'm lucky. I know not everyone is as fortunate as me.

I hope you realize just how lucky you are. Just to have someone like that who knows what you're going through and can help you through it... if I had someone like that, I wouldn't mind depression at all. But when I realize the fact that I don't have anyone like that, it's just very depressing.

anyway, please enjoy what you have, even though other things may not be that great. At least you have someone.

> This probably sounds sad/stupid but i find my life boring without depression and just cant stop thinking about it and i do miss it when im not so im a sense a part of you doesn't completley get over it.

It's not sad/stupid, I understand 100% where you're coming from. I've thought about that exact thing many many times before.

Does it ever end? No, never. Right now to be ahonest I feel the worst I have ever felt in my entire life and judging where things are headed I wont be here very much longer.

Tell us about it, JEDI. What is happening?

I'd like to know what's going on as well.

Let's just say I know what Anakin Skywalker was going through.

Woudl you care to elaborate? It's been a while since I've watched Star Wars, but I may have a slight idea what you're talking about.If you don't wanna say it here, I'd be happy to talk on PM or MSN/AIM (you name it)

Rather not too risky.

What's too risky?

Talking, people can learn too much.

I live on the other side of the country, so you have nothing to worry about from me.

And take it from someone who knows more than most: Talking can be a wonderful thing.

That has got to be the funniest thing I have ever heard. I'm sorry I mean no offense, and no disrespect. But to me it does.

Is it funny?Do you understand that I wouldn't be alive right now if I hadn't decided to talk? How funny is that?

You have no idea how sorry I am for making that rude insensitive uncalled fucking idiotic comment I apologize from the deepst of my heart and hope that you can forgive me. I truly truly am sorry :-( :-( :-( :-(

Don't worry, I'm not worried about it. I don't let words like that affect me.Just be careful about what you say and try to respect other people's comments more, even if they do sound funny/stupid to you.