I give up guys....A couple threads ago I wished that this depresion shit would stop do for at least a little bit.... well that pretty much happened, things were going just fine...But with good, bad must come as well, and I'm tired of doing it...This time I got two tickets (one which could of been a felony, but I think it's just a misdemeanor now) ...I'm just tired of it all...
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I give up....
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Quote:A couple threads ago I wished that this depresion shit would stop do for at least a little bit.... well that pretty much happened, things were going just fine...But with good, bad must come as well, and I'm tired of doing it... i know. i fill the same way. saturday was a great day... i wonder all the time is it worth it jsut for 1 good day (or a few) .. some dasy ago i got sucidal again and i dk how but i stopped thinking on how i could do it and not be stopped / found ... and started cring and called shannon. she came right over. and to day cuzone of her loud mouth classmates-friends.....i'm pissed at her. i dk wut to do...... i want to give up too... rigt now i just fill like takign a big ass knife and going from my throat all the way down.........i wish i knew wut to say about the tickets.
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rigt now i just fill like takign a big ass knife and going from my throat all the way downI feel the same way... after they releaesd me from the hospital ("Make sure you don't drive, call a friend or a taxi" - yeah, right, I'm not spending money on a damn taxi and I have no friends to call) I had to walk about 10+ miles back to where my car was (pulled off the side of the highway somewhere) ....When I started walking, it was bright outside.... about ahlfway to my car it was getting dark and I was wondering if anyone would see me crossing the middle of the road in time to stop and brake... I wondered that many times....Then I figured it would be more effective if I had my own car facing the on-coming car for more damage....
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i've thought about that....crashing my truck into a tree..... yea.. it's why when they know i'm down they take away my keys. and get grounded from my dirt bike. sometimes i can hide it from them.....other times i can't. i don’t really understand that tho.. i used to could hide it all really good.
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The only thing is no one can hdie my keys.... I could go right fucking now if I wanted to. My keys are in my pocket. Nothing's stopping me... so far
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it's always darkest before dawn. interpret that line however you want.
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I think if you had the strength to walk 10+ miles, you have the ability to keep on moving forward.I just you're okay and at home safe.
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Life is so relatively short, that ending it just doesn't make sense. You wont live to 150, or even 100 probably. Ride it out and let nature take it's course, is all I can suggest. When we leave, people will talk regardless. Weather we did it to ourself or someone/something did it for us.
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I second that comment.I can't say much because I've never experienced so much crap before like you guys have, but there's always a way with everything. With bad comes good, too, right? That's ONE thing I learned after thinking my head off in the past two years and almost turning myself psychotic twice.
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Bad times? Bad months? Bad years? I had them all and was almost taken from them. I am glad to be alive no matter what (unless I was falsely imprisoned for 30 years, then I would kill myself for sure. Shit never stops happening but its how you deal with it that counts. I smoke a little green to refocus my mind and recharge. I also live for my kids and my next piece of ass. 80 years is a short time on earth and I sure as hell am not going to worry about afterlife shit yet.
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What goes up must come down. Solution? Move to Australia! Its all backwards there, what goes down must go up.
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i say we all huddle together, all three of us with dynamites taped on, and one of us can do the honors of lighting the match.we can rock paper scissors.or we can sit together in the car, listening to our favorite songs with the exhaust fumes flowing in.i'm okay with either.although, the dynamite one seems more exciting and thrilling.whaddaya say?
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I raising a huge "WTF" flag on your post.
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I second that flag.And Helms is right. It's bad enough people are going to be sad that you're gone, but you're going to make them clean your blood spatter?
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Off topic but virtual star is hard to read with a black background. If I lived in a large city, I would apply for a job that cleans up spatter and brain matter. The pay is fantastic and is always needed.
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"if you are going to take yourself out, do the responsible thing, and don't leave a mess for someone else to clean up - that's just wrong."Not to cause a ruckus but I stated fact as well and what is a wtf flag? Didnt mean to offend anyone but death is never pretty. A good friend of mine died from his exhaust in the winter. His hands were sitting at the bottom of the steering wheel so his hands were bend in an upward fashion in the coffin and his body froze after rigor mortis set in because his car ran out of gas and the heat was gone.
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btw virtual star, i was serious. but i can only hope.anyway. so perhaps i should just swallow a heckavalot of sleeping pills. no mess that way eh?they can just carry my corpse out the door.
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Even if you were serious, your post was inappropriate. Just because you're depressed, it gives you no right to go suggest to other people in your situation to join a suicidal pack so lightly.
This thread is for positive support. I don't know what your troubles are, but you can always post and get some advice, instead of wallowing for the rest of your life.
No one wants to hear you or anyone else say such things.
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Ill tell ya one thing as someone thas cleaned up a few suicides and known several peopel that did it.no matter how little blood no matter how little "mess" is left to clean up thers always afucking huge mess left for ths people left behind.
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@wtfmate: Believe me, I'd be down with what you said. Especially right now. If you can make it over here with some dynamite, we're good.> thers always afucking huge mess left for ths people left behind.True for most people, but not me. The only mess will be getting rid of all my shit in my appartment, that's it.