So since my last post(please see "This Girl at Work"), I've gotten this wondering eye. I guess it's more like I'm noticing things more, something...whatever. Anyway my new roommate was watching this show on MTV, "A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila" and I saw one of the contestants that I thought was a guy at first. I thought he was cute. If you've watched the show, you know who I'm talking about. The he is a she named Dani. She's gorgeous, really. Anyway I found her myspace page and I ended up starring at her pictures.Then I found this band whose music I like and the drummer(Hannah Billie of The Gossip) just happens to be hot too, except she's also a girl.I think I may also have a thing for my professor. It's just out of control.Things have just been upside down and backwards. I just wanted to get the off my chest, I had to share with someone. I try not to think too hard about it, making it into a dilemma. Most of all I worry about confusing people and having them question who I am, though I feel this doesn't change anything. Any input or comments would be nice, just please me serious and don't scare me too much. Thanks.
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Girls, Girls, Girls??
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Maybe it's just me, but I think you are scaring yourself from yourself. What I mean is, it seems like you're experiencing a change and it's freaking you out.But I'm more confused on why you are so worried? Who cares what people say, see, or think about you. Fuck them. What's more important than anything is you accepting you in all your glory.
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Yes, I am a bit. I don't know what to do. It's my inadequacies doubled. I couldn't even act on these feelings even if I wanted to, well I think I do want to. I'd like to try, but I'm too scared to talk to anyone--male or female.The people I'm most worried about is my family. I already know how they feel about things like this. My cousin is gay and I've had to listen to the comments they make about how she's decided to live her life. I've already felt alienated from my family for other reasons. After all the thoughts run through my head, I just feel sad about it. I can't win either way.
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No, it is the same. My family would say the same things, if not worse. They probably think I'm gay and weird because I've never had a boyfriend.
It's hard, I've always had to take alot of crap from people and it hasn't gotten any easier.
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I know what I want...I think. Maybe it's both. I wonder why now. I did live out in the boonies and girls looked like girls and boys looked like boys. There was no confusion. Now I'm in the city going to school and I see all different kinds of people, it's one reason why I like this school.I'm a member of the dating site and instead of looking for all the pretty boys as I usually do, I decided to check out girls (lesbians). I don't know if I'll message a girl, though I did see someone that I like.
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You're young, and you have a healthy sexual attitude; if you don't have any objections (religiously, that sort of thing) then go ahead and try out being with another girl; you may like it you may not, but most of the time it's worth experimenting just to check things out. If you do like, more power to ya; if not, then you'll just be more secure in your sexuality in the future.
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I've actually tried not to think about God during this situation. I kind a feel if he didn't want me to do this he'd stop me, in his own way. I'm trying to listen to my intuition to see if this is bad for me, depending if I get a posistive or negative feeling. In the past my intuition has intervined and stopped me from doing stupid things. I like to think of intuition as a connection to something devine or devine intervention. Then again, I do like to think of myself as special too.