This site, has helped me out a lot throughout the years. Ive been going through manny ups and downs this year so far it was ok. Better then 2009...that is untill i lost my job this last week. It feels like things in life can be going okay, not great but okay. And then one thing goes wrong, then another, and slowly some people if your weak mentally start to break. Even though you have been through it countless times, everytime it happens I just want to curl in a ball cry and sleep for a week straight. And not talk to anyone or see my friends. First I got fired from my job. My reason for getting fired was I came into work drunk. It was stupid...what else can I say? you live you learn? Damn it. Then on monday I left my backpack at home and I live about 40 minutes away from my college so I just went home cause all my stuff was in my backpack. The next day I find out there is a test and monday was the review day for my calc class...so I got scared and havnt gone to THAT class for the last 3 days. Why was I scared? Because I missed the review day and then the test day and now since i missed those 2 days I dont know what to do cause my teacher said there was no makeups allowed. Its dumb but, its how I am..I feel like everything is slowly starting to build up again, into something negative. And it worries me. I guess I just need to pull my head out of my ass and do something, but I am always tired or get distracted doing useless things all day. sigh
When it rains, it slowly starts to pour...
I lived. I loved. I lost. I learned. I failed.I stood up. I laughed. I cried. 21 years young...happiness can't be too far now.
We all go through the same life experiences but we all seem to have our own way of viewing and dealing with it. You've just got to keep your head up.
The way I see it is that theres always a sunny calm before a storm. It may rain, and it may start to pour. But then the sun will always come out and shine again. It's a cycle.
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Pick one "negative" you think your causing and fix it. After that you'll feel better and can move to the next thing and fix it and so on and so forth. Just be able to distinguish between the shit life throws at you that can't be helped and the miseries you cause yourself that you can do something about.
There is no punishment. There is no reward. There are only consequences.