Worst Week Ever?

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Then forgive me for being ignorant for not knowing all this smoking shit. I don't mess with stuff like that.

it was all my shit... i just didnt think i'd be leaving the house, when i did and finished my cigarette, it was either fall on the floor or fall on the bed... i guess i shouldnt of trusted them, they're immature, and dont know about respecting other people.to clear a few things, not saying it inna bad way, but just to answer a few questionsi dont know if i was asleep or blacked out... i just couldnt move, i saw darkness but it was prolly cause of the pillow or whatever they put over my face... last thing i remember seeing is the roof, then something dark get thrown over my face.i hope this is the lowest i can possibly get, all last night i was feeling suicidal, thinking to myself that theres no way that i can come back from a situation like this... but i just closed my eyes and hoped that eventually shit will get better...i think most people woulda been man handled as well by a couple of 14/13 year olds, either way, i have no idea how many did anything to me. idk what they did to me. and thats probably the worst part...im just hoping that one of them doesnt try saying i got them pregnant inna couple of weeks... thats THE LAST thing i need on my plate, heh... but with my luck. she'll probably get pregnant with triplets.

If she was pregnant from raping you, then you are not expected to have anything to do with her children, or her.

I don't know if that's true or not (that needs to be looked into California law), but it may be hard to find some way to prove that she raped him. Not to sound bleak but it doesn't look good because he's seventeen while the girl is thirteen/fourteen.

You can and will come back from this, Grown. All things pass - they flow into the past and lose their grip.

Originally Posted By: Virtual_StarI don't know if that's true or not (that needs to be looked into California law), but it may be hard to find some way to prove that she raped him. Not to sound bleak but it doesn't look good because he's seventeen while the girl is thirteen/fourteen. Yeah, that's true. I'm not sure about the American system, but he could raise it in court and, if he has enough evidence, surely it will shed some light?And yeah, don't worry, it'll slip in to the past. I know this doesn't compare, but I was browsing 4chan's /b/ imageboard (I don't condone it at all for younger audiences or those who can't handle vulgarity, it's really a mix of stuff from acceptable to unacceptable stuff) and came across something that appeared relatively gory. I clicked on it and it was a picture-by-picture (comic book style- but using real images) image, of some guy who first had the cat in the bath with a can of tuna, looked all happy and innocent. Next frame he started torturing it, and I'm NOT going to through a frame-by-frame analysis of it but by the last one it was all mangled and hung on the wall of the bathroom with some chinese writing next to it.That really disturbed me, I tried something I don't normally do and said a few prayers but it just didn't make me feel any better. It's been about, a week now, since I saw it, and it's slipped into my memory. It's slipping into the darker corners of my memory where, I know they're there, but I can't see them. Every experience in life makes you stronger, and THAT is part of the reason why people say maturity and endurance/resilence comes with age.

I'm quite intoxicated here, but I'm going to try and give you advise anyway, and it's probably not the best, coming from a hypocritical drunkYou're 17, you're finally becoming a man. Not only in age, experience, and maturity, but also by law. Now is the time to take charge of your life, to be who you want to be, but you must be realistic about it. I know you want to be rapper, but how many other guys are there out there trying for the same goal? And I bet a lot of them are talented, really talented. And I'm not saying you aren't, but making it big relies on a whole lot more than just skill, you need contacts, and you need luck. You might be the best rapper in the world, but you don't meet the right people, nothing's gonna happen.So, my advice is this; do something that has a guaranteed future. Sure it's not a multi million dollar music contract, but is that so bad? A decent paying, reliable job you don't hate is a much better goal to strive for. If you really want money go invest it, it's not hard to do if you're willing to save.My other advise is to not give a fuck what anyone thinks. So many of my mates will get into fights with complete randoms they will never, ever meet again. Purely because they "disrespected" them. Seriously, who gives a fuck. You risk permanent injury, jail, a criminal record and death to teach some random wanker you'll never see again a lesson. And I'm guilty of this too, I drive a nice car partially because I like the attention is draws, but I know deep down that the kind of people who are impressed by my car, and not me personally aren't the kind of people I want to hang out with anyway.I don't really know where I'm going with this second point, I'm just rambling. I guess what I'm saying is just be yourself. Take a long hard look at who you are, not what your culture or society made you, but who you truly are. Now be that person. If people don't like it, who gives a fuck. Those that do are your true friends, and those that don't aren't worth thinking about.

I saw this last night and was too tired to say anything.. This morning I was going to say something but I looked t the clock and I had to go. .. And now there is shit I want to say but I don’t know how it will come off.. And the other isn’t nothing I want people to know. First, it don’t matter the age when someone is out numbered 5 to 1.. That 1 don’t have the best odds of winning or leaving. AND especially when that 1 is messed up. There is no excuses for rapist and molesters.. THEY violated you. I should read my own words.. I dk what else to say… it’s not something that’s going to just go away. You’ll always remember it. No matter how many people say .. Get over it, it’s the past. Your not going to. Something that painful you just can’t get over it.

maybe instead of trying to find "plot holes" and talking crap about how you think hes a Bullshitter.. maybe we should be focusing on THIS LINE RIGHT HERE.  Quote: i just want to kill myself... seriously.. the idea of this board has been thrown WAY off.

He won't kill himself, I guarantee it.@Grown: That was a fun read. I look forward to your next story.

Maybe if you read his early, past posts, you may understand how I always need to take a HUGE grain of salt with about 90% of what he says.If this really was a huge issue, then I wonder why he hasn't mentioned what happened when he said he would confront these kids. Instead, he's posting his music. That makes me wonder even more because how could he get over it so fast if this pushed him to the point of thinking about suicide.I wanted to let this go, but you just had to bring it up. And don't blame the board for someone like myself. Just because I'm a spoiled apple doesn't mean the rest are, as you can see above.

rofl..you sound like just another one of the many herbs from montebello. just go to schurr and find some friends

When people are feeling bad about life, music can be a great help. It's not a sign of getting over something too quickly for reality (and reality is much more varied than our own experiences), but a means of getting over it.

That I believe.But when one's truly in the depths of suicidal thoughts, not even their greatest passion seems all too wonderful. When I was sixteen and had the same thought pattern, music was dead to me. I even quit the band for a while because I wasn't getting the same feeling of love and fulfillment like I did before. In fact, it even made me more depressed because I felt like I lost a huge part of my soul.However, because we are two very different people, I can't say I expected him to go through the same process as I did. It's impossible. I still have my suspicions and don't trust this story, but that's all I can really say. Sometimes, even I know when to let things go and keep my trap shut. So, I'll safely leave it at that.

He didnt come here to be degraded.. or to be made to feel unimportant. You shouldnt be bringing his previous posts into this.. focus on the one IN THIS TOPIC. The one where he is talking about COMMITTING SUICIDE... HMM. Some people around here just don't use their brains. People come here to get help.. not to be told they are a liar.. or that everything they are saying is fake. We have plenty of MODS. and ADMINS. to do that... leave it to them.I think this garbage that has constantly been brought up.. and the fighting.. and the stupid arguing and bickering(not debating.. this has gone WAYYY past debating)needs to end. Because if this doesnt stop.. he could possibly kill himself... who are YOU to say he's lieing about this? Hmm? How do you REALLY know that hes not suicidal? because you THINK so?

I've already dropped the subject, so what are you barking about? Why do you always take other people's subjects so personally? Seriously, chill out.

omg... first off pink this isnt adressed to you hon. i am sooo sick of coming on this site and reading nothing but insults, bickering, and argueing over stupid shit. the o.p might have said some things in the past that were untruthful, but he could be telling the dead truth now! i came on this site over 2 years ago because i needed help. i DID NOT come on here to read some silly high school drama crap that can be taken in pm's. let the mods and admins do their jobs instead of judging every FREAKING post on if its real or not. jesus. and honestly i dont care if i get flamed at here, because ive shut my mouth now for ages, i havent posted in forever it seems, because i actually feel UNCOMFORTABLE to do so. how sad is that?!anyways, flame at me all you want. maybe im just lying about all of this? because apparently people can read minds on here and know for sure.And another thing, if i wrote in the depression section here that i was hurt, and thinking about ending my life, i wouldn't appreciate reading that people think im lying. thats so mean.but then again, what do i know? im not a mindreader.

not to be told they are a liarHmm... do you have any firsthand experience with that? I wonder.Maybe the reason you're taking this so personal is because you have done the exact same things as Grown, and you got caught in your lies, and you don't want that to happen to Grown? Could that possibly be true?Probably not. There's no way you would do that, right?> Because if this doesnt stop.. he could possibly kill himselfGive me a break, he's not going to kill himself. He's just going to cut off his hand this time or something like that.Edit: @pink: instead of actually addressing my point, you'll probably just whine and bitch about how I never let things go, etc. etc. how much you hate me and how much I piss me off.Feel free to prove me wrong. I look forward to it.

I agree with you too there girl.I used to be a frequent member of these boards.. with my little group of NICE.. non-dramatic members.. who have disappeared.. whos all out there seriously?? SDP.. ineligible.. roc.. crystal.. Amanda doesnt even post here anymore and she was one of the best posters. Now I DO NOT feel comfortable.. whatsoever being here. Lots of dramatic troublesome posters around it seems these days.

I'll probably get in trouble for saying this, but...Pink, I think you're just as dramatic as I am or the next person.