This is just a stupid rant. You don't need to comment or even read it. I just need to get this off my chest. Feel free to give your input though if you want.I'm even going to put it in a pretty little color so it doesn't seem as bad as it is.I don't understand where parents get this crazy idea that what they DO and what they SAY doesn't effects their kids. Or in my case what they don't do and say. I understand that I'm not the perfect child. I have my mistakes. I can be annoying. I know this. But you can't be serious. My so-called father. Not my birth father. Don't even know what he's doing, but this guy who tries to claim the title of "Abi's Dad" doesn't even acknowledge my existence let alone my presence. You can't tear your daggone eyes from the friggin tv for two friggin seconds to even say HI to me? Are you for real? But oh buddy no you just keep on playing ur daggone video games with your perfect model son who can do no wrong. If I say "HI DAD!" and give you a friggin kiss on the cheek you don't have to lift a finger, my dude. It takes ONE WORD... HI!!! HI!!!! OMG HI!!!!!!! wow one word! two letters! I'm not even asking for a how are you. No sir. Not even "how was your day"! No deary I'm asking for a HELLO! What is that like 2 seconds of the friggin breath from your lungs. 3 FRIGGIN WEEKS DARLING! 3 WEEKS. Ignore me, please do it. I love it. Mind me get snatched up by some daggone stalker and your rude lazy behind don't do a daggone thing about it. It's all good though. Because he makes himself out to be like this big tough guy. Never have time to spend with his son. Forget me. But he plays games with him when I'm at work mind you and tells my lil bro WHILE I'M THERE but doesn't bother saying anything to me that he has to work. What a surprise? He has to work? He's always working... I have one question... WHERE'S THE MONEY?? HELLO! My brother's been wearing the same jacked up sneakers for over a year. Where the heck is the money?? He works so daggone much but he never has money to get my brother something from the DOLLAR MENU at Mcdonalds. Really now? I gotta start paying for my brother, HIS SON that he brought into this world with his freaky deakyness. Who needs a father?? Really? What the heck are they here for?? Sit there and look cute? What do they do??? Honestly. The perfect fathers they show in movies "Honey I'm home! Don't worry BILL I'll take you to baseball paractice!" Fairy tales, my dear children, bunch of fantasies. I'm sure there are alot of good fathers. Great fathers. Chance is a great father, Rad, etc etc. But they must be going extinct. I don't want to rag on my moms but she's really out of it. The yelling and nagging has reached an all time maximum. I thought getting a better job was going to MAKE UP for the missing male in the household. Obviously not. I'm tired of getting yelled. She rarely has something positive to say. I know we're having money problems. I'm losing one of my last summers to help HER out and she's acting like I stole something from her. She expects the best out of me. I'm trying. I love her to death and would do anything for her but I don't understand why she's sweating me like this. You're NOT helping mother dearest. Not at all. If she has her reasons from work or whatever then it's not necessary to take it out on me. I try INCREDIBLY hard not to talk back but when you have someone yelling at for a good 20 minutes about the house and this that and the other.. it's hard holding it in. How do I do it? Me not know. And they she starts ignoring me!? Man, I got a TWO FOR ONE deal! Now that's what you call a discount. I'm done. Thanks guys. Hope I didn't piss of any parents or scare any close friends away. I just had to let it go.And Rad, this is basically why I love you so much because you're probably the closes thing I have to a father at this point even though I've never met you. But this is why I'm attached to you And now I'm about to start crying YAY for stupid emotions. Go away... shoooo Helmsy was basically my dad before he left... booo to him tooI also just wanted to say that... I didn't want to be another STATISTIC. But evidently I am. And that depresses me. Few of you will get that. Virtual, Pete, unsupervised, Kristal, Lisa, Pepsi, and Amz probably will.
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"Isso é como nós latinas/meninas pretas fazemos. Vá ou flua.. ya digg?"
Points up at others info. Great advice.
I was terrified of my dad, felt ignored, and like I could do nothing right. I felt ignored, and used.
Then he went (cause he is my stepdad) and had a couple kids with my mom. Who, I thought, and still think get more attention. It is I have learned, because I am not as needy.
After I grew up, I got where he was coming from, he worked his ass off to have pennies left over after paying for our home, food and such.
We DID talk about all of it, and now were really tight. I considered him my best friend for a very long time, still close, but I have my manthing now.
Like Rad said, talk to him, somehow....my dad had NO clue until I was twenty something!
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." -- Theodor Seuss Geisel
I agree with Jenn and Rad. I think you should talk to him and let him know how you feel. I just wanted to add also, that money issues can cause alot of stress for parents. You are a beautiful, bright and independant young lady. Maybe he feels you are not so needy for his attention and that's why he focus's more on your brother. (like Jenn was saying)Either way, let him know how you feel. If he blows you off then whatever. You are a bigger better person than that. And you are not a statistic! big hugs
~I tried to be good, but then I got bored~
I have no helpful advice, but I will comment on how your dad is a complete wackjob for not noticing such a wonderful gal like yourself. And as for your mom, maybe she's just stressed and is unfairly taking it out on you. :frowning:
You should wait for the perfect time and let your voice be heard by your folks. In other words, listen to the others' advice. You deserve some praise and recognition!
Keep your head and spirit up. If you need a boost, remember to pop in your copy of LOTR. After all, I think you deserve some eye candy. Or maybe real candy is just as good. :smile:
Much love to you!!
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I can't really think of anything to say right now that is meaningful that wouldn't take 30 minutes to write. I feel bad that your family doesn't treat you the way it should. I disagree that all dads are bad. I have one of the best dads around and I strive to be one myself. Granted most men are oblivious to most everything but I'm not. My dad actually gets mad when I don't come downstairs to say Hi to him when he gets back from work. I feel bad about it and apologize. Which is why I find it funny (strange) that you make the effort to say hi to your dad and he doesn't even reply. He's pathetic. Don't even waste your breath on him anymore. Or you can play jokes on him and have really bad breath when you talk to him. Drink tons of coffee and eat onions and then talk up a storm to him.
"And baby I ain't never ran from a nigga and I damn sure aint bout to pick today to start runnin." - lil wayne